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“Pardon me for seeing the glass half full”*

by chuckofish

I’m sure you heard that March 10 was the 20th anniversary of Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

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Because people in 1997 dressed like that in high school never.

Daughter #1 was in seventh grade in 1997 so, of course, I didn’t let her watch a show about vampires. Daughter #2 was in second grade! Good grief. (I was the Mom who wouldn’t let her seven-year old daughter  go to the cool girl birthday party to see The Spice Girls movie, thus wrecking her social standing for-ever.) Mea culpa. We discovered Buffy later when it was in syndication, and I realized (once again) that I was an idiot and should have let daughter #1 watch such an empowering show for girls. But oh well, we were a little late to the party, but we got there and we are all huge Buffy nerds fans. And if you are not, what is wrong with you?

Anyway, this weekend I watched a good part of season one again. And it was pretty great.

In other news, the OM and I got trapped at home when our garage door broke and we couldn’t get our cars out. (See Buffy marathon above) The repairman didn’t come until 8:30 Saturday night! Well, the door was eventually fixed and I was able to get up (after springing forward an hour) on Sunday morning and drive to church.

The Gospel reading was from John chapter 3 where Nicodemus goes to see Jesus in the dark of night to ask him what’s what. Jesus says, “The wind blows where it chooses, and you hear the sound of it, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.” It is one of my favorite scripture passages and it made me very happy to hear it. It also made me want to watch the scene in Jesus of Nazareth with Laurence Olivier as Nicodemus. And so I did later in the day.

After church the OM and I went to Schneithorst’s and then we went to see the wee babes in the NICU and held them for an hour. Who needs anxiety medication when you can hold a baby? By the way, Lottie is going home today!

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Here she is without a feeding tube and breathing all on her own, burping after a bottle. She is nearly 7 lbs and has no tape on her face!

The little bud has to have a little hernia operation (not unusual) and then he’ll be ready to come home too.

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He’s breathing on his own too! He weighs 6 lbs 3 oz.!

And it snowed too. Winter is back, but c’est la vie. Have a good week back at the salt mine!

*Rupert Giles, Buffy, Season one, episode three

 

Into the Dustbin of History!*

by chuckofish

I recently posted about a necklace that I inherited from my grandmother. Today I’m going to write about another object she left me — a modest wooden trinket box that has always particularly intrigued me.

Until recently all my efforts to determine its origins have failed, but I think I’ve finally figured it out. I believe that it was made by White Russian émigrés to Europe after the Bolshevik Revolution. It certainly compares better to Russian trinket boxes than anything else I’ve seen. Note the overall folk-art style, the simple subject matter,

the snow and incised detail,

and the turned-away figures.

Between time spent in Paris, Italy, and London in the 1920s, our grandmother would have had plenty of opportunity to acquire such a box. The wonder is that she kept it all those years, that my father held on to it, and that it has survived in my boisterous house. Wouldn’t you love to know the story behind it? Was the concierge of their Paris flat a White Russian who made these on the side and gave it to her? Did she just pick it up from a street vendor somewhere? Well, its story may be lost in “the dustbin of history”, but the little object (of negligible monetary value) remains one of my favorite treasures, and I hope that one day I will pass it along to one of my sons.

I think it’s time to re-watch Yul Brynner and Ingrid Bergman in “Anastasia”, don’t you?

*“You are pitiful, isolated individuals! You are bankrupts. Your role is played out. Go where you belong from now on – into the dustbin of history!”  Leon Trotsky (Ha! Little did he know. Leon Trotsky had to flee his own communist regime only to get murdered in Mexico City).

 

Fat baby Friday: mewling and puking edition

by chuckofish

I was thinking about babies and wondering how much I weighed as a newborn, so I found my birth announcement (7 lb. 6 oz.) and found this charming photo of my hatchling self.

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This picture  used to embarrass me a lot when I was a child. Not too cute, this little babe. My mother always said, no, you were precious, but I could plainly see that I was not.

When I was growing up, one of my friends used to frequently say to me, “Open your eyes, Katie!” because I had a habit of closing them when I talked to people. (Yelling at me didn’t help.) You can see I was reluctant to open them from the beginning.

However, I can see me in that face, and as I get older, I think I look more like it than ever.

All the world’s a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first, the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse’s arms.
Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress’ eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon’s mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slippered pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.

–W. Shakespeare, As You Like It

Have a good weekend. It’s supposed to be colder “than normal” and they say we’ll get two inches of snow. Wanna bet?

Food for thought

by chuckofish

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How meanly and miserably we live for the most part! We escape fate continually by the skin of our teeth, as the saying is. We are practically desperate. But as any man, in respect to material wealth, aims to become independent or wealthy, so, in respect to our spirits and imagination, we should have some spare capital and superfluous vigor, have some margin and leeway in which to move. What kind of gift is life unless we have spirits to enjoy it and taste its true flavor? if, in respect to spirits, we are to be forever cramped and in debt?

–Henry David Thoreau, Journals

As for [William] Blake’s happiness–a man who knew him said: “If asked whether I ever knew among the intellectual, a happy man, Blake would be the only one who would immediately occur to me.”

And yet this creative power in Blake did not come from ambition. …He burned most of his own work. Because he said, “I should be sorry if I had any earthly fame, for whatever natural glory a man has is so much detracted from his spiritual glory. I wish to do nothing for profit. I wish to live for art. I want nothing whatever. I am quite happy.”

…He did not mind death in the least. He said that to him it was just like going into another room. On the day of his death he composed songs to his Maker and sang them for his wife to hear. Just before he died his countenance became fair, his eyes brightened and he burst into singing of the things he saw in heaven. ”

–Brenda Ueland, If You Want to Write

In the empty night hours I can still walk through the streets. Dawn may surprise me on a bench in Garay Park, thinking (trying to think) of the passage in the Asrar Nama where it says that the Zahir is the shadow of the Rose and the Rending of the Veil. I associate that saying with this bit of information: In order to lose themselves in God, the Sufis recite their own names, or the ninety-nine divine names, until they become meaningless. I long to travel that path. Perhaps I shall conclude by wearing away the Zahir simply through thinking of it again and again. Perhaps behind the coin I shall find God.

–Jorge Luis Borges, The Zahir

Discuss among yourselves.

(The photo is of Lew Wallace)

“I can do all things through him who gives me strength.”*

by chuckofish

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“It is not work that kills men; it is worry. Work is healthy; you can hardly put more upon a man than he can bear. Worry is the rust upon the blade. It is not the revolution which destroys the machinery but the friction. Fear secretes acids; but love and trust are sweet juices.”

–Henry Ward Beecher

A toast tonight to Henry Ward Beecher, American Congregationalist clergyman, firebrand preacher, and social reformer, who died on this day 130 years ago.

Here’s an interesting story about the history of Beecher’s Brooklyn church.

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Also, I just learned that the writer Nancy Willard died last month. I met her about twenty years ago when she visited my high school alma mater and I had dinner with her and drove her around in my old 240 wagon. I thought she was a very nice person, who had a lot of interesting things to say about the writing life. We were simpatico I thought. Into paradise may the angels lead you, Nancy. At your coming may the martyrs receive you, and bring you into the holy city Jerusalem.

*Philippians 4:13

What are you reading?

by chuckofish

 

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Last weekend I re-read Barbara Pym’s The Sweet Dove Died. It is one of her later books, published in 1978 after she had re-started her career. By this time, her writing is markedly bitter and cynical–which is sad, but not hard to understand. The main characters are all rather awful.There is only one “church lady” in this book and she is a minor character, living on the fringe of things, not unlike–one suspects–Barbara herself. Still, I enjoyed the novel. Pym has a sharp eye for character.

Amazon is supposed to deliver Fred Vargas’s new mystery A Climate of Fear today. Huzzah!

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What are you reading? Any suggestions?

“Visit us with thy salvation, enter every trembling heart”*

by chuckofish

While my DP was shivering in 12-degree weather in the north country, we were enjoying spring temps in flyover-land. I went to a couple of estate sales and found a watercolor of Bruton Parish church, which, as you know, is one of my favorite Episcopal churches.

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We visited the wee babes at the hospital, but didn’t get to see the boy who was filming a lacrosse game at the time. We had quality time with daughter #3 who brought us up to date on the twins.

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Aren’t they looking good?

On Sunday I skipped church and went to see Degas, Impressionism, and the Paris Millinery Trade, a “groundbreaking exploration of Edgar Degas’ fascination with high-fashion hats and the young women who made them,” at the St. Louis Art Museum which featured “an array of period hats and 60 paintings and pastels, including key works by Degas that have never been exhibited in the United States.”

58b05edae6f4b.image.jpgI am not a huge fan of French Impressionism, so an exhibit focusing on French woman and their hats (especially hats with dead birds on them) turned out to be not that exciting to me.

Since the OM had declined to accompany me (He had “too many things to do”–whatever), I decided to check out the rest of the museum. I was pleasantly surprised to see the re-furbished second floor of the main building.

panorama.jpgThere was actually a lot to see! The European, Asian and Ancient art displayed was impressive and I recognized a lot of “old friends” which must have been in storage for years.

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Likewise, I enjoyed the “re-imagined” American Art galleries on the third floor.

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The space for American Art has been greatly expanded and, again, includes a lot of good things. I was pleasantly surprised.

I went home where I puttered around and later that evening I went to Lenten Evensong at church which was a good way to wind up the weekend.

O Lord, support us all the day long, until the shadows lengthen, and the evening comes, and the busy world is hushed, and the fever of life is over, and our work is done. Then in thy mercy, grant us a safe lodging, and a holy rest, and peace at the last.

Now it is Monday again. Have a good week! Seize the day!

*Charles Wesley

“May the wind under your wings bear you where the sun sails and the moon walks.”*

by chuckofish

A week or so ago while my DH and I were taking a brief stroll at our cottage, we heard a lot of unusual bird calls. Much to our surprise and delight, we discovered a group of about five (!) bald eagles soaring above us. When a large flock of crows tried to drive them off, aerial high-jinks ensued, and needless to say the eagles got the better of the engagement. A few days later, I came across my eagles on a local news site:

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Photo by Sue Yenoli from NorthCountryNow

Now that’s something you don’t see every day! The whole experience got me thinking about eagles as symbols, which naturally brought to mind Roman legionary standards.

Sometime in the 1st century BC, probably when Marius reshuffled the army, the legions started carrying their famous eagle standards. For Romans, the eagle was the greatest symbols of pride and identity. To lose one to the enemy was worse than death, although it happened on several famous occasions.  The first Roman Emperor, Augustus, won himself massive public approval by negotiating the return of standards taken by the Parthians at the battle of Carrhae in 53 BC. The scene appears front and center on his famous statue from Prima Porta.

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The two central figures on the breastplate show the handover clearly.

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The Romans went to great lengths to recapture lost standards. They even managed to recover the three taken by the Germans in the Teutoburg forest during the famous massacre in 9 AD. A century later, a panel from Trajan’s Column depicted soldiers carrying the standards (with added battle honors) on campaign against the Dacians in what is now Romania.

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And still later, they appear prominently in this scene from the Arch of Constantine,  though that emperor is said to have replaced the eagle with a cross after he converted to Christianity.

Scene of the emperor’s mercy (clementia). Relief on the north side. Marble. A.D. 175—196. Rome, Arch of Constantin.

Scene of the emperor’s mercy (clementia). Relief on the north side. Marble. A.D. 175—196. Rome, Arch of Constantin.

Certainly, the Roman eagle and all it stood for inspired America’s founding fathers, who (after much debate) chose the eagle to symbolize American freedom and spirit. Everything from the presidential seal to the quarter has the eagle on it.

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Benjamin Franklin preferred the turkey (oh, the memes that could have been!), but there was no denying the majesty of the bald eagle. Add to that the Roman connection and you have a mighty cool national symbol.

If you are intrigued by Roman legionary standards, I recommend that you watch “The Eagle”, starring Channing Tatum as the son of a commander who lost both his life and his legion’s eagle in the desolate ‘heart of darkness’ that was Roman Britain.

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It’s a good, old-fashioned adventure movie based on the novel by Rosemary Sutcliff.

Have a great weekend!

Incidentally, while it’s tornado season in flyover country, we’re seesawing from spring to winter. This week the temperature dropped 40 degrees in 24 hours (from 63 on Wednesday to 22 on Thursday). Today we have a high of 12 with an overnight low of -3, and by Tuesday it should be in the 50s again. Planning what to wear is a real challenge!

*J.R.R. Tolkien, The Hobbit. Given how often he used them to save the day, Tolkien clearly thought eagles made the perfect deus ex machina.

Blowin’ in the wind

by chuckofish

Well, spring may still be a way off officially, but severe weather season has arrived in flyover country.

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I can’t even imagine what it would be like to have your house knocked down and all your possessions gone in the blink of an eye.

But the people who live through this kind of event, as in Perryville the other night, always (and rightly) say that they’re glad to be alive and possessions can be replaced.

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Tornadoes are a scary reality here in our flyover state. Although we like to run outside whenever the sky turns gray and menacing and yell, “Auntie Em! Auntie Em!”, we take them very seriously.

Anyway, I thought I would recommend an appropriate movie having to do with severe weather, but there really aren’t many good ones. There’s Twister (1996) with the late Bill Paxton…

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I remember there’s a scary scene in Places in the Heart (1984)…

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…and who can forget the tornado in Where the Heart Is (2000)?

Well, it was just an idea. It  might be best to veer over to hurricane movies and settle in with Key Largo (1948)–a truly great Bogey and Bacall outing directed by John Huston.

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Here’s to blue skies and a tornado-free weekend.

(The first three photos are from KMOV.com, stltoday.com, and Ksdk.com.)

Throwback Thursday

by chuckofish

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Here is a three-year old DP and her squalling 4-month old little DP circa  Easter 1959. You can tell it’s Easter by the the Steiff bunnies and  eggs on the table.

Old snapshots are great because of all the familiar stuff you see in the background–in this case, of our small two-bedroom apartment–the old books, the pipes on the pipe rack, the bookends, the table, the framed Edouard Detaille etchings.

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