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Keep letting your light shine

by chuckofish

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“Those who love much, do much and accomplish much, and whatever is done with love is done well…. Love is the best and noblest thing in the human heart, especially when it is tested by life as gold is tested by fire. Happy is he who has loved much, and although he may have wavered and doubted, he has kept that divine spark alive and returned to what was in the beginning and ever shall be.

If only one keeps loving faithfully what is truly worth loving and does not squander one’s love on trivial and insignificant and meaningless things then one will gradually obtain more light and grow stronger.”

―Vincent Van Gogh, The Letters of Vincent Van Gogh

By the way, I am going to see this tonight:

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This documentary is directed by Jon Erwin (who directed Woodlawn (2015) which I recommended) and is focused on shedding light on the actor having become a born-again Christian late in his life. I  remember that Billy Graham visited him when he was dying, so this should be interesting.

I’ll let you know how it goes.

“Lord, make me a blessing to someone today.”

by chuckofish

As I mentioned, I have been reading the latest Mitford book, To Be Where You Are, and I have to say, I am enjoying it immensely.

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Here is an interesting short interview with the author Jan Karon.

Hardly anyone believes me when I say that Mitford is everywhere; it is portable, we carry it with us if we choose to. Just be thoughtful of and really interested in others. And hear this: Listen. That is a great start to discovering that Mitford is everywhere you go. I promise.

She is correct, of course. Mitford is the people, not the place (although I do love the place.)

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What I have learned reading the Mitford series over the years–and I have read all 14 novels, several times–is that we must appreciate and be thankful for the little things, and take joy in them. Enjoying basic things like having a roof over one’s head and good food on the table and a fire on the hearth leads to contentment. Add to this, being engaged with one’s community and loving your neighbors, and you will be a happy fellow indeed.

The other thing I have learned is that prayer is nothing without Trust. You can pray your head off, but if you don’t really trust God and believe that everything will be okay, it all means nothing.

Philippians 4:13, for pete’s sake!

“I can do all things through him who gives me strength,” in case you’ve forgotten.

And don’t forget the prayer that never fails: Thy will be done.

So if you are feeling down–and who hasn’t felt down lately?–take a trip to Mitford. Turn off the TV news and read a book!

P.S. I have been watching Hamish Macbeth on Netflix as recommended by my DP and it is wonderful! Another small village filled with characters!

Beside the big river

by chuckofish

On this day in 1888 Thomas Stearns Eliot was born in St. Louis, Missouri.

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His family had its roots in New England, but his paternal grandfather, William Greenleaf Eliot moved to St. Louis soon after finishing his graduate studies at Harvard Divinity School in 1834. He established a Unitarian Christian church there, the Church of the Messiah, which was the first Unitarian church west of the Mississippi River. Today it is called the First Unitarian Church of Saint Louis. When Ralph Waldo Emerson visited St. Louis, he met Eliot and called him “the Saint of the West.”

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It is good to take a moment to remember that the 1830s in St. Louis were the early days. For years Protestants had been conducting services in their homes, but it was not until after the Louisiana Purchase that Protestant churches were built. In 1818 Baptist missionary John Mason Peck organized the First Baptist Church. This was followed by a Methodist, Presbyterian, and Episcopal church (founded in 1825 when Thomas Horrell became the first rector of the Christ Church Episcopal Church). So Eliot was quite a pioneer.

William Greenleaf Eliot was also a benefactor of educational institutions in St. Louis and co-founded my flyover university with his good friend Wayman Crow in 1853. Originally named Eliot Seminary, the name was eventually changed to Washington University.

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Eliot became chancellor in 1871 and was associated with the university for the rest of his life.

I have fond memories of growing up next to Washington University back in the days when small children were free to roam and even cross big streets without adult supervision. In the early sixties my siblings and I used to walk up to the campus and play “army” heavily armed with toy guns. (We were big fans of the television show Combat! and so we were continually fighting the Battle of the Bulge.) I’m sure this would be considered quite inappropriate these days–small gun-toting children wandering on campus–but, boy, did we have fun. My older brother was the captain, I was the lieutenant and our little sister (and DP) was the sargeant. (Her middle name is Sargent, so it seemed especially appropriate.)

We knew (or should I say, our brother) knew our way around campus. We also knew where all the candy machines were.

Eliot also founded my Alma Mater Mary Institute in 1859, a school for girls which he named after his daughter, Mary Rhodes Eliot, who died at age 17.

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Well, I digress.

T.S. Eliot once said:

It is self-evident that St. Louis affected me more deeply than any other environment has ever done. I feel that there is something in having passed one’s childhood beside the big river, which is incommunicable to those people who have not. I consider myself fortunate to have been born here, rather than in Boston, or New York, or London.

I have to agree. I have probably mentioned already that there is something about growing up in a town on a river that is different. You always have your bearings for one thing. You know North and South because you know where the river is.

When Eliot visited M.I. in 1959, he gave a lecture and at the end he read “The Dry Salvages” (one of the Four Quartets) in its entirety. Here is the first stanza.

I do not know much about gods; but I think that the river
Is a strong brown god – sullen, untamed and intractable,
Patient to some degree, at first recognised as a frontier;
Useful, untrustworthy, as a conveyor of commerce;
Then only a problem confronting the builder of bridges.
The problem once solved, the brown god is almost forgotten
By the dwellers in cities – ever, however, implacable.
Keeping his seasons, and rages, destroyer, reminder
Of what men choose to forget. Unhonoured, unpropitiated
By worshippers of the machine, but waiting, watching and waiting.
His rhythm was present in the nursery bedroom,
In the rank ailanthus of the April dooryard,
In the smell of grapes on the autumn table,
And the evening circle in the winter gaslight.

Snapshots of the weekend

by chuckofish

Well, the weekend flew by as usual when daughter #1 is in town. Friday night she went out with her BFF Liz who was in town from Denver, so the OM and I had a quiet night at home watching an Elvis movie which I had DVR’d. Elvis never disappoints, even in a pretty terrible movie like Roustabout (1964)!

1964-ELVIS-PRESLEYs-16th-movie-Roustabout-is-released-by-Paramount.jpgOn Saturday after some errands and a spin class–daughter #1, not moi–the wee babes came over with their parents to celebrate their Aunt Mary’s birthday.

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Screen Shot 2017-09-24 at 3.31.24 PM.pngWe had guacamole, but forgot the cake. Oh well, she had lots of presents to open and we had a mini-dance party.

On Sunday daughter #1 and I skipped church and instead headed out to the Pedal The Cause bicycle event in Chesterfield to cheer on the boy who was riding in the PTC Classic.

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IMG_1487-1.JPGHe got a medal and he deserved it. We are really proud of him to say the least. Ultimate Lacrosse supported #UltimateWheeler and raised $2500 for the cause.

IMG_1491.JPGIt was only a year ago that he was recovering from his second big surgery.  Praise the Lord, the boy has done great and we are grateful every day.

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The little bud tried to eat his sign, of course

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IMG_1622.JPG.jpegDaughter #1 headed home later in the afternoon and we went back to our normal level of activity, hunkering down at home. I did some laundry. I was pretty tired from all the fun and outdoor activity, but not as pooped as this little guy.

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Today is a big day at work. Have a good week!

No dumb country-yokel arts, right?*

by chuckofish

It was an up and down sort of week, or, to be accurate, a down and up sort of week, since it started out badly and improved as it went. I won’t dwell on the bad stuff, which was mostly work-related and therefore boring. Suffice it to say that by mid-week I was searching diligently for something light and fun to watch and/or read. And, oh my, how the good Lord delivered! Son #1 and I discovered the 1990s British TV show, Hamish Macbeth, starring a young Robert Carlyle, his adorable dog, and a host of other familiar faces.

Set in the remote Scottish Highlands, the show revolves around the village constable, Hamish Macbeth, as he struggles to keep the peace among an eccentric but endearing cast of local characters. Hamish loves his life in Lochdubh (who wouldn’t?), and is willing to do almost anything to avoid drawing the attention of his superiors in Inverness, lest they promote him and he has to move away. Rather than following the letter of the law, he often finds himself mediating between injured parties or achieving justice after a convoluted series of events magically comes together. And did I mention the beautiful scenery?

Hamish Macbeth is laugh-out-loud funny, but it also has plenty of serious moments and real conflict. The vibe is rather like a mix of Local Hero, The Englishman Who Went up a Hill and Came down a Mountain, and Shetland, with the emphasis on the first two. The one thing you can be sure of is that everything will turn out okay in the end. At least that’s my impression so far. I’ve only seen four episodes, and the show ran for three seasons. Here’s a bit of dialogue that captures the flavor:

TVJohn: “So it’s crows nailed to doors and threatening letters now, eh?”
Hamish: “And how do you know about that?”
TVJohn: “Isobel told me about the letter.”
Hamish: “I’m just after telling Isobel!”
TVJohn: “She knew already. Rory told her. And the postman told him. And Esme told Agnes about the crow on account of her niece, Kirsty, hearing Vicky tell Cameron at the barn.”
Hamish: “Ohhhhhonestly this place! Unbelievable!”
TVJohn: “I know, I know. You can’t clean your ferret’s cage out here without it being on CNN.”

Ah, village life. I can relate. You can watch Hamish Macbeth on Amazon if you get their Acorn channel. It’s also available on DVD. The TV show is inspired by a series of murder mysteries by M.C. Beaton. I’m reading the first one, Death of a Gossip, now. It’s enjoyable, but pretty average, and although it has its moments, it does not achieve the same tone as the show. My chief complaint is that Constable Macbeth doesn’t appear in the book often enough. Knowing that sometimes it takes an author a few books to establish her characters,  I’ll probably read more before I decide on the series’ merits.

Have a great weekend and “dinna fash yourselves”!

*”Listen here now. The big boys from Inverness are coming. Hamish says no takin’ the piss and no dumb country-yokel arts, right?” from episode 1, “the Great Lochdubh Salt Robbery”.

 

Set me free

by chuckofish

Yesterday I went to the dentist first thing to have a crown replaced which felt like two hours of torture. Then I went to work and got a flu shot. Then I had two meetings in the afternoon and a small event at church after work. Some days, right?

Boy, am I ready for the weekend!

Daughter #1 is coming home later today to celebrate her birthday (belatedly).

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The wee babes will help us party like it’s 1999.

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You know, maybe I’ll stay up ’til 10 o’clock and have a second glass of wine.

Meanwhile, the boy,

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Yes, it will be a busy weekend and a hot one.

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But it’s all good. Have a great day and a fun weekend!

This and that

by chuckofish

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Fall is officially here…but the temperature is soaring well into the nineties in flyover country! In fact, yesterday we broke a record–97-degrees! Typical. I mean, we had a lovely, lovely August–which is usually the worst–and now when it should be cooling off, it is hot, hot, hot.

Not that I’m complaining…

Tonight on TCM they are showing some “counter-culture classic” documentaries:

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If you are watching the PBS Vietnam series and want to hear more of this background-music-to-the-times, check it out. I will be setting the DVR (but definitely not for Woodstock: The Director’s Cut.)

I thought this was interesting, but sad. It is good to know there are still people out there fighting the good fight. BTW, Ravi Zacharias is a very interesting dude.

And this is good to remember:

Thou hast kept count of my tossings; put thou my tears in thy bottle! Are they not in thy book?
Then my enemies will be turned back in the day when I call. This I know, that God is for me.
In God, whose word I praise, in the LORD, whose word I praise,
in God I trust without a fear. What can man do to me?

–Psalm 56:8-11

The weekend’s a-comin’ soon!

Not waving but drowning

by chuckofish

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Nobody heard him, the dead man,
But still he lay moaning:
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning.
Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he’s dead
It must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,
They said.
Oh, no no no, it was too cold always
(Still the dead one lay moaning)
I was much too far out all my life
And not waving but drowning.

Today is the birthday of English poet and novelist Stevie Smith (1902–1971). I remember going to go see the movie Stevie (1978) based on the play about her by Hugh Whitemore. I went with my mother and she was deeply affected by it. She sometimes reacted very emotionally to sad things and this always deeply affected me. It made me worry that we (her children) had no idea how sad and lonely she really was. But I suppose that is true for most children.

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The movie is available on YouTube, so maybe I’ll check it out. Anyway, a toast to Stevie Smith seems in order.

The painting is “Beyond the Sea 6” by Paul Bennett

Be that as it may

by chuckofish

Last week I went to a lecture about music in Hollywood war movies and the development of end credits. It was actually very interesting. I could certainly relate more to it than to the usual biochemistry and molecular biophysics talks I am forced to sit through. Long story short, it prompted me to watch the old HBO series Band of Brothers from 2001.

Band_of_Brothers_poster.jpgI watched three episodes and that was enough for me. It was good, but I woke up in the middle of the night feeling like I was suffering from PTSD.

Maybe I will go back to it and try again, but I need a break from the intensity. Now I am trying to watch Ken Burns’ Vietnam.

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Meanwhile, this is supposed to arrive today.

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P.S. The OM took Longmire #1 (The Cold Dish) along with him when he went to a conference last week. He is currently reading #3. I believe he is hooked.

“If we live, we live to the Lord”*

by chuckofish

Well, we got our act together on Saturday morning and daughter #3 came over loaded down with gear and the wee babes. We walked the few blocks to the Greentree Parade and set up our camp chairs along the perimeter in our favorite spot for 20 years.

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IMG_1502.JPG.jpegThe active little bud actually sat on my lap for an hour and a half watching the parade. I refused to share. Lottie slept in the stroller

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IMG_1533.JPG.jpegShe was okay with that. A schmoozing RC priest on the sidelines asked if the OM was her great-grandfather. Zut alors! How to win friends, right?

At church on Sunday, the scripture lessons were all about forgiveness. Our “Rector Emeritus” gave the sermon and it was rather weak I thought. He never mentioned the great first lesson from Genesis, which tells the story of the wonderful Joseph forgiving his terrible brothers, and only touched on the gospel (Matthew 18:21-35–“seventy-seven times”!) Ministers never want to touch the end of this story with a ten-foot pole and it is frequently left out altogether.

“…Should you not have had mercy on your fellow slave, as I had mercy on you?” And in anger his lord handed him over to be tortured until he would pay his entire debt. So my heavenly father will also do to every one of you, if you do not forgive your brother and sister from your heart.

Yikes, forgiveness is a hard thing! But Jesus makes it clear that it is important and necessary and not optional.

Our rector reminded us to read and then pray the Prayer for the Oppressed (#36 in Prayers and Thanksgivings, BCP) this week in view of the protests that are going on in our flyover city.

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Look with pity, O heavenly Father, upon the people in this
land who live with injustice, terror, disease, and death as
their constant companions. Have mercy upon us. Help us to
eliminate our cruelty to these our neighbors. Strengthen those
who spend their lives establishing equal protection of the law
and equal opportunities for all. And grant that every one of
us may enjoy a fair portion of the riches of this land; through
Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

I intend to do this. I was glad that he pointed to the Book of Common Prayer as a resource in times of trouble.

After church I bought a copy of the the Rector Emeritus’s new book–My Life Under the Big Top, Reflections of a Comic, Clown and Priest. I’ll add it to my stack of books at home.

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Meanwhile I am reading Call the Midwife, which has been kicking around at home since I brought it home from the giveaway basket at work. It is really good! It is the memoir of a young English women who moves into a convent (Anglican nuns) and trains to become a midwife in post-war London’s East End slums. I am learning a lot.

The boy was unable to attend the parade with us because he was working in his store. But we got a bonus visit from the boy and his wee family on Sunday night. It was good to see our hard-working son and feed him tacos! (Check out my instagram for a video of the bud’s latest talent discovery.)

Have a good week!

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*Romans 14:8