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Just the usual

by chuckofish

Another week has passed and soon will fade into snatches of memory: an anniversary celebrated, a movie watched, errands run, packages received, emails sent, and words exchanged in conversation. By next week I will remember what this post records and little else. Here are the highlights of my week.

My office is finally finished! I put the last posters up this afternoon.

Note the new poster half-frames, a marvelous invention that a colleague recommended. These ingenious ‘frames’ consist of four strips of magnetized wood, two at the top and two at the bottom of the poster, so that the it hangs correctly. Frames come in a wide variety of sizes, are incredibly easy to assemble and look great. (A number of different companies make these and I chose almost randomly; I’m not endorsing one in particular.) Here’s another view of the office.

As you can see, I still have piles of paper to go through but it’s getting there, and I am quite happy on the ground floor.

In other news, I received Storm over Sky in the mail and was delighted to discover that it is the prequel to Master of Morgana and takes place about a year earlier.

Lest you doubt that our young hero could experience so much adventure in quick succession, the plot involves trying to catch the sheep thief who threatens to destroy the community’s livelihood and mutual trust. I can’t wait to read it!

When not working (I did do plenty of that), I watched an Indian movie called Talvar from 2015, starring Irrfan Khan. Based on a real case, it is the story of a respectable dentist and his wife who awake one morning to find their 14 year old daughter in her bed with her throat slit. Having failed initially to undertake a complete search of the compound, the authorities eventually find the family’s live-in servant, a 50 year old man, similarly murdered on the roof-top terrace of the house.

The parents’ claim to have slept through the murders seems unlikely, but if they were smart enough to plan the crime, then they should have come up with a better excuse. Rashomon-like, the film presents three different explanations, each of which is incomplete or tainted in some way. The local police are so stupid and incompetent that they ruin the forensic evidence and assume the parents are guilty. The national police take over the case but care only for political advancement and so suppress the findings of their one competent investigator (Khan) on the grounds that his methods are not altogether legit. A third investigator comes up with another implausible explanation, while the media report every sensational and unverified rumor about the poor young victim. Like Rashomon, the story does not inspire confidence in one’s fellow man. The film was well done and interesting enough to make me look up the real case, the unsolved 2008 Noida double murders.

Perhaps the world is full of awful people. I prefer to think that it is full of decent people who are sometimes awful and often stupid. Be humble and remember, the fact that we can outwit sheep and lobsters (as the DH puts it) may place us at the top of the food chain, but it doesn’t mean we’re very smart.

Have a great weekend!

Whoopee ti yi yo, git along little dogies

by chuckofish

Well, the summer is meandering along and soon will be over! We seem to do the same things over and over. Time like an ever rolling stream…

Anyway, it is a good time to re-read Thoreau’s A Walk to Wachusett, which he recorded on July 19, 1842.

It was at no time darker than twilight within the tent, and we could easily see the moon through its transparent roof as we lay; for there was the moon still above us, with Jupiter and Saturn on either hand, looking down on Wachusett, and it was a satisfaction to know that they were our fellow-travelers still, as high and out of our reach as our own destiny. Truly the stars were given for a consolation to man.

Tomorrow is the anniversary of the death of Ulysses Grant in 1885. Let’s all take a moment to remember our 18th president. His funeral in New York City demonstrated the great love and admiration the country felt for their former president and Civil War hero. He was respected not only by comrades in arms but also by former enemies. Marching as pallbearers beside the Union generals William Tecumseh Sherman and Philip Sheridan were two Confederate generals, Joe Johnston and Simon Buckner.

The column of mourners who accompanied Grant was seven miles long. (This is an interesting thread with photos of all the honorary pall bearers.)

Placed in a “temporary” tomb in Riverside Park, Grant’s body stayed there for nearly 12 years, while supporters raised money for the construction of a permanent resting place. In what was then the biggest public fundraising campaign in history, some 90,000 people from around the world donated over $600,000 to build Grant’s Tomb. A million people, including President William McKinley, attended the tomb’s dedication on April 27, 1897, 10 days after Grant’s body had been moved there. Grant’s Tomb was — and is —the largest tomb in North America.

I’ll also remind you that Saturday is the National Day of the Cowboy. Celebrate it in appropriate style!

As Emerson Hough wrote in his “Passing of the Frontier,” the time of the Cattle Kings, though short, was

…a wild, strange day…There never was a better life than that of the cowman who had a good range on the Plains and cattle enough to stock his range. There never will be found a better man’s country in all the world than that which ran from the Missouri up to the low foothills of the Rockies.

I plan, of course, to watch some good cowboy movies, including (but not limited to) Red River (1948), as is my tradition.

You might also want to read up on some of your favorite western artists or just look at some great western art…

They’ll be celebrating in Oklahoma City at the National Cowboy and Western Heritage Museum with numerous events, but we can all plan our own party. Life is a banquet and most poor suckers are starving, as Auntie Mame said. So heat up some beans and join me in watching Red River!

By the way, last night we watched The Best of Times (1986), a movie I have a great fondness for, in memory of Robin Williams. You will recall that it is about re-playing a high school football game played in the fall of 1972, which was a disaster for the characters played by Robin Williams and Kurt Russell. (The OM was playing football that year and so it always resonates with him.) It’s a classic and I highly recommend it.

“You’d never know it but buddy I’m a kind of poet/ And I’ve got a lot of things to say”

by chuckofish

The Hibiscus is blooming! Huzzah!

You will recall that years ago I planted seeds given to me by my assistant (harvested from her yard) and they grew and bloomed once. Since then the plants have grown but never bloomed. Either they were cut down by accident, eaten by deer (?) or whatever. But, hallelujah, they have bloomed again! This brings me joy. You can see, too, that the Tiger Lilies are still going strong (all over our flyover town). I guess they like all the rain we’ve had.

Meanwhile I have been reading Horseman, Pass By by Larry McMurtry. It is a good first novel, but not great. As I figured, it is told from the perspective of the boy, Lonnie, and Hud has only a small, incidental part. Someone in Hollywood must have had the idea that the ornery, bad guy would make a better subject for a movie, and they were probably right. They changed a lot in the book. I wonder what McMurtry thought.

“I just wonder, when it’s all said and done,” he went on, “who ends up with the most in this scramble. Them that go in for big shows and big prizes and end up takin’ a bustin’, or them that plug along at what they can kinda handle. Home folks or show folks. They’s a lot a difference in ’em.”

Here is Paul Zahl’s list of movies on TCM in July (Part II). As usual, we are on the same page. What he says about Bonnie and Clyde is right on.

Some good thoughts here and here.

Today is the birthday of Robin Williams. Maybe I’ll watch Awakenings (1990) or Mrs. Doubtfire (1993), my favorite RW movies. Or maybe I’ll watch RV (2006)–who knows? Just remember ol’ Robin and go for the gusto, or at the very least, reach out to someone with a smile. It might go a long way.

And here’s a toast to Don Knotts on his birthday: Just a little lower, Barney.

*Johnny Mercer, “One For my Baby”

“Don’t cross the river if you can’t swim the tide.”

by chuckofish

I’m taking the blog duties today and my mother will be back tomorrow.

Today for work, I ventured all the way to St. Joseph, MO and back (it is a bit of a trek) for an announcement and to shoot a video for our social media platforms. Can you spot me in this picture? That pink jacket is bright.

In my world, two cameras in the Buchanan County courthouse is a win. And worth criss-crossing the Missouri River. If you’re wondering, did I snag the aux cord and play “Don’t Cross the River” as we crossed the river for six or eighth time (you lose count), the answer is yes.

I got to see more of downtown St. Joseph than I did when we were here last year. They are the county seat of Buchanan County and thus have a square with the courthouse in the middle. There are some old buildings. But, the city itself kind of has the vibe of one whose time has passed it by. This is to say, the city is kind of run down.

However, I just learned on the Wikipedia page that Eminem was born in St. Joseph before moving to Detroit. Hello! Of course, it is was also the start of the Pony Express and the place where Jesse James died. Another fun fact: St. Joseph was the second U.S. city to install electric street cars. It has its own tv market–although it is the 201st largest of 210 U.S. markets.

Today kicks off several busy weeks for me. I will be in Salt Lake City next week for a conference–look forward to a post from Daughter #2. Then, Daughter #2 is coming to town the following week (woo hoo)! After that, it’s the Bicentennial celebrations (where the most exciting event is the ice cream social at Central Dairy). And then the State Fair kicks off. Big things in Mid-MO! And good blog posts to come.

“Sun and moon, bow down before him, dwellers now in time and space”*

by chuckofish

Well, I have to say these Presbyterians I worship with now sure can belt out a hymn–four hymns, in fact, every service. Everyone sings, even the teenagers! Hallelujah, brothers and sisters. It surprises me every week. What a nice surprise!

The twins came over twice this weekend. On Friday morning we entertained each other while daughter #3 did something. Lottie, ever the chatterbox, brought me up to date on all the goings on in her life. The wee laddie, who plays his cards much closer to the chest, concentrated on his cars.

On Saturday we celebrated the OM’s birthday. His favorite present was a DVD from daughter #1 of his favorite movie Ford vs Ferrari (2019).

Yes, I know, we look like Mr and Mrs Crypt Keeper, but even in our decrepitude, we had fun and it was even balmy enough for us to sit out on the driveway.

While daughter # 1 was in town we also managed to have a margarita at Club Taco, while enjoying the musical stylings of Dusty Rhodes.

We also went to a couple of estate sales and braved one un-airconditioned antique mall. (I learned from my friend Becky always to travel with a fan.)

In other news, the boy and his family ventured to Grant’s Farm for the first time in ages…

…and daughter #2 and famille ventured to the beach in North Carolina.

(Baby Katie’s bathing suit care of daughter #3’s golden needle!)

And these made me laugh out loud.

Have a good week. The peace of Christ be with you.

Lone places of the deer, Corrie, and Loch, and Ben, Fount that wells in the cave, Voice of the burn and the wave…*

by chuckofish

What with moving office, making a quick trip to Burlington, VT, and starting the last two days of my digital history workshop, I’ve had a busy week. Despite the activity, I don’t have much to report. Although the Vermont countryside was lovely, Burlington was way too crowded and built up. The heavy traffic did not make me feel adventurous, but I did manage to visit a couple of antique stores, and at one called (fittingly) Rusty Relics I found a little trinket tray that matches the heart-shaped box my Aunt Susanne gave me decades ago.

When I needed a break from heaving books around and driving across the state, I started re-reading a young adult novel from 1959 called Master of Morgana that I gave to one of my sons years ago.

The book is set on the Isle of Skye and involves a sixteen year old boy’s efforts to find out what caused his sure-footed brother to fall into a gorge. As the brother languishes in a coma, our hero takes over his job among the fishermen, at least one of whom must be to blame for the ‘accident’. Perilous adventures ensue. No one writes this type of book anymore. The protagonist is intelligent, resourceful and upright, but not superhuman, and although the villains are bad, they are not psychotic or perverted. High-tech gadgetry and physics-defying stunts do not figure at all; coastal salmon fishing and smuggling do. The story unfolds at a reasonable pace and all the characters and events seem plausible and real. I’m enjoying the book so much that I ordered Storm over Skye by the same author, and I am really looking forward to its arrival.

a real storm over Skye

Not bad for a busy week…

*Andrew Lang, “Lone Places of the Deer”

“Little by little, the look of the land changes by the men we admire.”*

by chuckofish

Recently I watched the movie Hud (1963) for the first time in a long time. I was really impressed. Based on a book by Larry McMurtry (his first), it is directed by Martin Ritt and stars Paul Newman, Brandon de Wilde, Melvyn Douglas and Patricia Neal.

It’s a story about people and relationships. There are no explosions, no psychopaths, no CG special effects. It’s kind of a perfect movie in that it is a good story, well-written, beautifully filmed in black and white by James Wong Howe and intelligently directed. The actors are all pros–even 20-year old de Wilde had been acting for 10 years–well cast and believable in their roles.

Patricia Neal, who won a Best Actress Oscar for her part as Alma and who is not a favorite of mine, is really good. Paul Newman is terrific.

The only problem I had was that Newman, who plays a “cold-hearted bastard,” cannot really play one. I think you are supposed to admire his father (Melvyn Douglas)–and you do–but when his father asks him how he ever ended up with a son like Hud, you see pain register in Hud’s eyes. When Hud says sarcastically, “My momma used to love me, but she died,” you can’t help feel the probable truth in the statement.

You’re also supposed to sympathize with the de Wilde character, Hud’s nephew, who comes to realize what a “cold-hearted bastard” his hero is, and cheer him on as he leaves home at the end. But I felt sorry for Hud.

According to IMDB, Newman’s intention was to play the part as a bad guy, and he was later stunned that so many young moviegoers had a poster of Hud and viewed him as their hero. This is the main failure of the movie I think and also what makes it memorable. Well, I’ll have to read the book and see what McMurtry was trying to say.

Anyway, I am kind of in the mood to revisit some more Paul Newman films from his heyday in the 1960s. He really was something.

The Elmer Bernstein score is also excellent.

I also watched Ten Who Dared (1960), a Disney movie from the olden days, which I originally saw on the Sunday night “Wonderful World Of Disney” show.

The film, starring John Beal, Brian Keith, Ben Johnson et al, tells the true story of Major John Wesley Powell, who in 1869 is sent by the U.S. government to map and chart the Colorado River region. Powell is a geologist and ex-Union Army Major who lost a hand in the Civil War. He needs assistants but trustworthy skilled men are hard to find after the war. The Major has to accept any volunteer he can find and he assembles a diverse team of nine men. The movie is full of action and beautiful scenery–like most Disney movies of that era. I loved those movies back in the day–movies without an agenda beyond teaching about another fascinating footnote to American history. As a result, I learned, as a child, about the one-handed John Wesley Powell, trilobites and Andersonville Prison, among other things. Back in the day, Disney set kids up to enjoy history and fostered a lifelong interest in learning.

(I rented it on Amazon Prime. The print is not great, but I did not care. It was just fun to see it again. There are other such Disney movies available to rent on Prime, ones that Disney Plus does not include.)

I will note that Saturday is the OM’s birthday. We will toast Pappy and order pizza and hope that his grandchildren do not start pushing random buttons. We will have cake. Even though he already got his big present, there will be a few more to unwrap.

Circa 2000

And this is a good reminder for all of us. “There is no circumstance in which God has nothing for us to do, no situation in which we cannot be faithful to his calling on our lives. He calls none of us to uselessness and calls none of us to another man’s life or ministry. He calls each of us to be obedient in the context he has ordained for us.”

*Homer Bannon in “Hud”

“I really want to lose three pounds.”

by chuckofish

Well, I’m in kind of a funk today. Sometimes it feels like certain things should be easier. You know, like paying a social media platform to advertise. Or buying furniture. But no. And sometimes, on top of all that, you get emails like this.

We can all just assume that Nordstrom’s algorithm is way off and NOT that they’ve heard me making jokes about how sweatpants are all that fit me right now. Right? Sigh.

Did you get my reference? Because at work, I’m always making Mean Girls references and no one gets them. To the point that I get emails like this from out of state program partners during conference calls.

In other news, this happened yesterday.

We are all so lucky to have local news that send push alerts like this.

To update on my mother’s blog post from Monday, I did eventually get my new bed put together. And I got rid of my old bed on Facebook Marketplace in less than an hour. I also got a new rug for my room. It brings me joy–even if the upholstery color isn’t quite what I expected on the bed and so I’m not quite sure the two go together.

It’s all still a work in progress–but aren’t we all.

Once again, on Monday, my mother had a quote from Freddy B on the blog and so last night, I took one of my Buechner books off the shelf and settled in for a little insight into my soul.

“And God knows we have all had our wilderness and our temptations too–not the temptation to work evil probably, because by grace or by luck we don’t have what it takes for more than momentary longings in that direction, but the temptation to settle for the lesser good, which is evil enough and maybe a worse one–to settle for niceness and usefulness and busyness instead of holiness; to settle for plausibility and eloquence instead of for truth.”

Frederick Buechner, The Two Stories

As usual, it didn’t disappoint.

“And so the seasons went rolling on into summer”*

by chuckofish

Sorry I am late with Paul Zahls’ recommendations for TCM viewing in July. I don’t check the Mockingbird site as regularly as I used to, because a) I am no longer an Episcopalian and b) I am kinda done with their glib, never quite serious attitude which is so prevalent in hipster Christians. Why can’t they admit they are just a bunch of nerd believers (like me)? Anyway, PZ is great and I love him.

“Of all preaching in the world, (that speaks not stark lies,) I hate that preaching which tendeth to make the hearers laugh, or to move their mind with tickling levity, and affect them as stage-players use to do, instead of affecting them with a holy reverence of the name of God.”

–Richard Baxter, “The Reformed Pastor,” 1615-91

Erica Wilson: A Life in Stitches, a new exhibition at the Winterthur Museum, looks interesting. It delves into the life and work of the “Julia Child of needlework.” I remember Erica Wilson and her needlework kits back in the 1970s and 80s. Our mother appreciated her historically referenced work. She also had a successful 1970s television program that taught needlework and was one component of many business ventures that included embroidery kits, books, newspaper and magazine columns, public appearances, and a store bearing her name on New York’s Madison Avenue.

A belated happy birthday to Henry David Thoreau (July 12, 1817-May 6, 1862). I would toast him, but you know, he said, “”I would fain keep sober always. … I believe that water is the only drink for a wise man; wine is not so noble a liquor. … Of all ebriosity, who does not prefer to be intoxicated by the air he breathes?” So I’ll take a walk instead.

And here’s Travis Tritt’s new song/video, “Set in Stone.”

*Henry David Thoreau, “Walden”

“We will feast in the house of Zion”*

by chuckofish

Well, we had quite a three-day weekend–lots of drama and some severe weather thrown in for good measure.

The OM and I drove over to Jeff City on Friday where we bought a new car. We have a habit of thinking about a thing for two years and then, on what appears to be the spur of the moment, doing something big. This is what happened once again this week. Inspired by the video daughter #1 produced about the Riley Brothers car dealership in JC (the ones who sustained huge damage two years ago in the JC tornado), the OM finally made a decision re replacing his old Honda Accord.

While he dealt with finalizing and picking up the car, I went home with daughter #1 to her apartment and tried to put together a new bed which had been delivered that morning. We also talked for several hours about the pros and cons of a big job offer she got. This was a lot of drama for one day. I won’t go into the details, but we finally threw our hands up into the air, abandoned the bed unfinished, left her apartment in disarray, and drove home to St. Louis. The OM followed in his new car.

That night we drank two bottles of wine, listened to music and discussed more pros and cons of the job offer. Then we slept through a huge storm in which 60-70 mph winds downed big trees and power lines and left us without electricity.

Photo from KSDK.com

(The steeple was blown off this 150 year old church (STL PD photo)–Zut alors!)

We wanted the wee twins to come over the next day and help us pick up sticks and other detritus in our yard, but they had to go to a birthday party, so we had to do it ourselves.

The boy and his famille came over after the party to check out the OM’s new car.

The wee laddie said, “Pappy has a cool Caddy!” and set his seal of approval. (My “Cooper” is still his favorite.)

We ate a late lunch from Chick fil-A by candlelight.

After they went home, daughter #1 and I headed over to Club Taco to hang out on the patio…

The OM texted us when the electricity came back on (17 hours later) and we went home with a big sigh of relief.

After church on Sunday morning, daughter #1 headed home to put her chaotic apartment back in order. I caught up on the phone with my DP and daughter #2 and then the OM and I took a ride through Lone Elk Park. We saw this raccoon and her three kits…

…and a few lazy elk, but not much was going on there. Then I watched some PGA on TV and settled in for the evening, grateful for electricity, fair weather, family, and friends.

“I SHALL NOT WANT,” the psalm says. Is that true? There are lots of things we go on wanting, go on lacking, whether we believe in God or not. They are not just material things like a new roof or a better paying job, but things like good health, things like happiness for our children, things like being understood and appreciated, like relief from pain, like some measure of inner peace not just for ourselves but for the people we love and for whom we pray. Believers and unbelievers alike we go on wanting plenty our whole lives through. We long for what never seems to come. We pray for what never seems to be clearly given. But when the psalm says “I shall not want,” maybe it is speaking the utter truth anyhow. Maybe it means that if we keep our eyes open, if we keep our hearts and lives open, we will at least never be in want of the one thing we want more than anything else. Maybe it means that whatever else is withheld, the shepherd never withholds himself, and he is what we want more than anything else. 

–Frederick Buechner, The Clown in the Belfry

*Sandra McCracken