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Month: January, 2025

A hearty hello.

by chuckofish

Well, Daughter #1 here, for the first time in several weeks. I’ve been sick and work has been busy. A tale as old as time. But, we’ve made it to the end of January and that is worth celebrating!

While I was sick last weekend, I started re-reading The Daughter of Time by Josephine Tey. The book is a 1951 detective novel, concerning a modern police officer’s investigation into the alleged crimes of King Richard III.

As summarized on Wikipedia, “Scotland Yard  Inspector Alan Grant is feeling bored while confined to bed in hospital with a broken leg. Marta Hallard, an actress friend of his, brings him some pictures of historical characters, aware of Grant’s interest in human faces. He becomes intrigued by a portrait of King Richard III. He prides himself on being able to read a person’s character from his appearance, and King Richard seems to him a gentle, kind and wise man. Why is everyone so sure that he was a cruel murderer?

With the help of other friends and acquaintances, Grant investigates Richard’s life and the case of the Princes in the Tower, testing out his theories on the doctors and nurses who attend to him. Grant spends weeks pondering historical information and documents with the help of Brent Carradine, a likable young American researcher working in the British Museum. Using his detective’s logic, he comes to the conclusion that the claim of Richard being a murderer is a fabrication of Tudor propaganda, as is the popular image of the King as a monstrous hunchback.”

It is a very clever mystery that manages to remain interesting despite the main character never leaving his hospital room! It’s also a fascinating look at how history is written and things become accepted as truth.

Anyway, I’m better now and back on Friday blog duty. I’m looking forward to my regular weekend routine and wine time! And just because my mother shared a Mr. Smith photo doesn’t mean I can’t also.

“The secret ministry of frost/ Shall hang them up in silent icicles”*

by chuckofish

FYI I decided to keep my blog at WordPress and I upgraded my site, meaning I pay more now, but I am back to posting photos. Yay! I know you have missed this little fella:

Well, January is almost over and the snow is finally starting to melt, although the ice mounds left by the snow plows will be with us until March probably.

Yesterday after school, while Lottie was in dance class, the boy and the bud came over to hang out. I heard all about the bud’s first drum lesson at The School of Rock. He is definitely cool enough to be in the band**.

In other news, my Bible Study starts up today. I am happy to return to this smart group of ladies as we delve into Exodus 1-18. Time to watch The Ten Commandments (1956) I guess.

I thought this about the release of the JFK files, conspiracy theories, and the “Deep State” was very interesting.

And this is funny!

**Remember this?

*From “Frost at Midnight” by Samuel Taylor Coleridge; read the poem here.

“The eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth”*

by chuckofish

I am proud to say I finished reading Drums Along the Mohawk–all 654 pages! It was well-worth the effort. Really a wonderful book. The author, Walter D. Edmonds, writes in his Author’s Note:

To those who may feel that here is a great to-do about a bygone life, I have one last word to say. It does not seem to me a bygone life at all. The parallel is too close to our own [1936]. Those people of the valley were confronted by a reckless Congress and ebullient finance, with their inevitable repercussions of poverty and practical starvation. The steps followed with automatic regularity. The applications for relief, the failure of relief, and then the final realization that a man must stand up to live…They suffered the paralysis of abject dependence on a central government totally unfitted to comprehend a local problem. And finally, though they had lost two-thirds of their fighting strength, these people took hold of their courage and struck out for themselves. Outnumbered by trained troops, well equipped, these farmers won the final battle of the long war, preserved their homes, and laid the foundations of a great and strong community.

Woohoo, yes, they did.

I was also reminded of how truly hard it was to be a woman on the frontier–something today’s bloggers/influencers, who find it “hard” to have babies and bring up children today, might find mind-boggling. Just to give birth to a baby in 1779 and then watch it starve or freeze to death or be tomahawked and scalped is beyond their comprehension. It’s kind of beyond mine, and, yes, yes, parents do have plenty of modern problems today–iphones and activist teachers etc. etc.–I know, but at least I have the grace to be thankful for my OB-GYN, and safe, warm house, and well-stocked grocery stores. Ye gods, women, get some perspective!

Anyway, we should all take a moment every once in awhile to remember our ancestors who stepped up and made many sacrifices so that we can enjoy our freedom. And stop whining. Please.

Today is the birthday of one of my favorite ancestors, John Wesley Prowers, who was a pioneer on another frontier. I think of his mother, my great-great-great grandmother, who gave birth to him in 1838 in Westport, MO, a frontier outpost on the Missouri River where just a handful of white people lived at the time. She gave birth to my great-great grandmother the following year. Then her husband died. She did have family nearby and the settlement was growing, but wow.

Anyway, it is my practice to watch a good cowboy movie to celebrate JWP’s birthday–usually the great Red River (1947). But I think I might dip again into Lonesome Dove (1989) this year. JWP, you will recall, was a friend and business partner of Charles Goodnight, upon whom the character Captain Call (Tommy Lee Jones) is based. 

Here’s to the sunny slopes of long ago.

And this is really, really good. “To the rest of the country—the rest of the world–we don’t matter, here in the Middle of Nowhere. And that’s fine, for the most part. Most of us are happy to let the noise and craziness of the world pass us by. But that doesn’t mean that we are unseen by God. That we are unnoticed by Heaven.”

Have a good day! Read an old book. Watch an old movie. Praise God from whom all blessings flow.

*II Chronicles 16:9

In which I do not recommend several novels

by chuckofish

Every few years, I (daughter #2) decide to read a number of acclaimed and/or recommended contemporary novels in quick succession. This is usually a bad decision, but for some reason I feel a need to know the current state of fiction. Long story short: disappointing. And yet, long story long, I have a lot to say!!

I will write here about various themes and takeaways so that you might choose to avoid the work of reading these (award-winning!!!) tomes. Several of them were, like my previous reading material, 400+ pages long! I plan to end on a positive, note, though, because I successfully landed on a wonderful palate cleanser and treat. A quick rundown:

Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch (2013)
Kevin Wilson, Nothing to See Here (2019)
Elizabeth Strout, Tell Me Everything (2024)
Claire Lombardo, Same As It Ever Was (2024)
Anthony Doerr, Cloud Cuckoo Land (2021)
Daniel Mason, North Woods (2023)
Amor Towles, Table for Two (2024)
Amor Towles, Rules of Civility (2011) (re-read)

To start with the negative, Same As It Ever Was joins seemingly so many contemporary novels in representing the hardships of the modern mother. This novel truly repeated, over and over again, that the young mother was “having a hard time,” even though she boasts various privileges that make life (and certainly parenting) easier. (I put “having a hard time” in quotation marks because I literally mean that sentence was repeated ad nauseam.) Though I found the particulars of this character’s “hardships” grating, it was actually the hand-wringing tone of it all that was so frustrating. It reminded me of Elizabeth Strout’s first “pandemic novel” (Oh William!) in which Lucy Barton actually wrings her hands nonstop. (In Tell Me Everything, it is somehow still pandemic-esque in Maine, and Lucy hasn’t really calmed down.) Both Lucy and the protagonist of Lombardo’s novel are constantly wondering if their children like them, while unapologetically behaving in ways that don’t exactly merit being liked (by their inexplicably-devoted husbands, friends, or children).

Kevin Wilson’s novel is not really worth mentioning — it bordered on a “beach read.” That said, this odd novel about the nanny of children who spontaneously combust is the only contemporary work I read last year in which someone has the experience of loving children unconditionally, 24 hours a day, even when it is hard to care for them. How lovely that it isn’t their mother (deceased, of course) or stepmother, but a nanny!

I did enjoy Cloud Cuckoo Land, in spite of its slow start and the challenge of learning three+ different timelines and narratives. I gave it credit for its relentless love of libraries, language, and literature, and its optimism about people and the world broadly (even with a climate activist/terrorist plotline!). Of course, these were the qualities that were semi-derided by a New Yorker review, which, more interestingly, linked Doerr and Donna Tartt: both authors won both the Pulitzer Prize for Fiction and the Carnegie Medal for Excellence in Fiction in 2015 and 2014, respectively. My critique of Doerr’s novel was that it was almost absurdly clever, and as it careened toward its conclusion, I knew it was going to wrap up into a neatly-tied bow. This guy really tried hard with the novel, and it showed. But whereas Doerr seemed invested in justice (poetic and otherwise) as well as redemption, Tartt concludes that good and bad actions are basically all relative, and that individuals should simply do what makes them happy. We can explain away all our sins. I hate to admit it, but I was legitimately shocked. I did not love the main character enough to feel happy about how The Goldfinch ended.

I knew that Daniel Mason’s North Woods, which is apparently based on Nathaniel Hawthorne’s notebooks and is based in western Massachusetts, would drive me nuts. And it did. While the novel, which spans several centuries, was well-researched in ecology and nature (tree spores! fungi! beetles!), its treatment of people was a little too cute. Spinster sisters, prison pen pals, true crime reporters. Sure. But you know I felt a line was crossed when the author spent a section on fictionalized versions of Herman Melville and Nathaniel Hawthorne. I could tell you exactly which notebook entries of Hawthorne’s were referenced, which short story of Melville’s was ripped off — and I didn’t appreciate it. If I want to enjoy literary (and even scientific!) scenes of bucolic Massachusetts forests, I can (and will!) return to Henry David Thoreau.

Doerr, Tartt, and Mason clearly did their research for their novels, and it showed. It was all a little too effortful. By contrast, Amor Towles is capable of writing a smart character who is well-read and quick-witted, without showing off how well-read and quick-witted he is. Accordingly, both Table for Two and Rules of Civility were such a pleasure to read. And you know what’s funny? Walden is a bit of a plot point in one of the novel’s central relationships: she says it’s her desert island book; he reads it with pencil in hand; he leaves it behind at the relationship’s conclusion. Throughout all this, it comes naturally that the narrator shares how Thoreau’s writing applies to the scene at hand:

There is an oft-quoted passage in Walden, in which Thoreau exhorts us to find our pole star and to follow it unwaveringly as would a sailor or a fugitive slave. It’s a thrilling sentiment–one so obviously worthy of our aspirations. But even if you had the discipline to maintain the true course, the real problem, it has always seemed to me, is how to know in which part of the heavens your star resides.

But there is another passage in Walden that has stayed with me as well. In it, Thoreau says that men mistakenly think of truth as being remote–behind the farthest star, before Adam and after the reckoning. When in fact, all these times and places and occasions are now and here. In a way, this celebration of the now and here seems to contradict the exhortation to follow one’s star. But it is equally persuasive. And oh so much more attainable.

I don’t regret reading a number of misses — it just reminds me who I am. I read these novels and I think, these must be for people who are deeply confused. Life is hard, and they don’t know why. They are happy to hear that other people think life is hard. They have neither a pole star, nor a sense of the now and here. And I like to think: I have both.

And the Lord will be my portion/ In the empty wilderness*

by chuckofish

Is it still January? This month seems endless, doesn’t it? I stayed home most of last week and there was no happy hour on Friday because daughter #1 was sick (and no shampoo for Mr. Smith!) The OM and I did have a social event on Saturday night which entailed getting dressed up and driving at night, but we went and I had a very good time. We had cocktails and dinner and listened to a talk by the daughter of Vincent Price about her father who grew up in St. Louis. He was quite a character. I talked to more people and socialized more than I had all week (maybe all month).

Sunday I went to church with the boy and the twins and then we had brunch at the Sunny Side Diner, which is a favorite of ours. They had dinosaur-shaped pancakes and bacon and were ready to go to lacrosse in the afternoon, sated and full of the Holy Spirit.

I liked this article about the ministry of small things: “The ‘ministry of small things’ is consistent with how the Bible teaches us to think about God’s kingdom. In His parable of the yeast, Jesus says that the kingdom of heaven starts with something as modest as a dash of leaven. Yeast is practically invisible, and you don’t see it working, yet as it slowly permeates the dough, it has a formidable impact (Matt. 13:22). Our little works, patiently and consistently done, can bring about something big.”

I sure. like to think so.

And here’s a new song I like:

Tomorrow there will be a guest post from daughter #2, so don’t miss it!

*Wendell Kimbrough & Paul Zach

It’s Friday again…

by chuckofish

Have a good one.

Maybe this will help you get started.

What are you reading?

by chuckofish

It has been such a cold week! Thankfully the sun has been out much of the time and I have been able to needlepoint by my window. I also sent the Review off to the printer. I do love crossing items off my to-do list, don’t you?

I am also making headway reading Drums Along the Mohawk–the 600+-page tome given to me for Christmas. I am more than a third of the way in and I must say, it is wonderful. Published in 1936, it is well-written, exciting, and populated with realistic characters. It is very scary in parts and well it should be. It was a scary time to be on the New York frontier.

“For the first time they began to realize that there was no protection for them except in themselves. An unpredictable force had been born in the Mohawk Valley…”

The book is peopled with historical persons such as General Nicholas Herkimer and Adam Helmer, and other descendants of the German immigrants who were the majority residents in the central Mohawk Valley at the time. It also features such historical events as the Battle of Oriskany.

(Side note: When I was writing the Review article about RADM Courtney Shands, I learned that he was the commander of the aircraft carrier USS Oriskany during the Korean Conflict. The USS Oriskany was named after the famous and bloody engagement during the Saratoga Campaign. Synchronicity!)

Anyway, I am learning a lot and enjoying the book. Of course, young people today never read books like this and it is a shame. They might actually learn something about our country and the pioneers who built it. It was not easy, not easy at all.

Here’s another bit of trivia. Henry Fonda, the star of the film Drums Along the Mohawk (1939), was a descendent of Douw Fonda, (1700–1780) a prominent settler and trader in the Mohawk Valley. During the fighting with Loyalists, he was captured by a Mohawk, tomahawked and scalped. Two of Douw Fonda’s sons, John and Adam, were taken prisoner in the raid and taken to Canada.

Our ancestors were a hardy lot. They had to be.

So stay warm, read some (good) historical fiction, watch an old movie. Be thankful for and remember those who came before you.

Some poetry (and a prayer)

by chuckofish

Today we toast George Gordon, Lord Byron, who was born on this day in 1788. As you know, he is one of the major figures of the Romantic Movement in English literature. He wrote lengthy narratives as well as shorter lyrics, and died at the age of 36. So for those of you who are feeling world-weary and disillusioned (a quintessential theme of Byron’s poetry) here’s “So, we’ll go no more a-roving”:

So, we’ll go no more a roving

   So late into the night,

Though the heart be still as loving,

   And the moon be still as bright.

For the sword outwears its sheath,

   And the soul wears out the breast,

And the heart must pause to breathe,

   And love itself have rest.

Though the night was made for loving,

   And the day returns too soon,

Yet we’ll go no more a roving

   By the light of the moon.

And here’s the poem read by John Gielgud.

I will also say that I thought Rev. Franklin Graham did a masterful job praying at the Inauguration on Monday. And I have to admit, I also liked Archbishop Dolan remembering Gen. George Patton’s instructions to his soldiers as they began the Battle of the Bulge eight decades ago:

“Pray! Pray when fighting. Pray alone. Pray with others. Pray by night. Pray by day.”

Pray.

Made for God

by chuckofish

Yesterday was quite a lot. I was happy to sit and watch all the celebrating from my warm flyover home. The vibe has changed.

It was also Martin Luther King Day, so here’s a quote from his “The Measure of a Man”:

“So I say to you, seek God and discover him and make him a power in your life. Without him all of our efforts turn to ashes and our sunrises into darkest nights. Without him, life is a meaningless drama with the decisive scenes missing. But with him we are able to rise from the fatigue of despair to the buoyancy of hope. With him we are able to rise from the midnight of desperation to the daybreak of joy. St. Augustine was right—we were made for God and we will be restless until we find rest in him.”

Amen, brother.

Skies could not blue-er be

by chuckofish

Because ice was predicted on Friday night, daughter #1 decided to hold our Saturday morning DAR meeting on Zoom instead of at the country club where we usually meet. I had not experienced a Zoom meeting since retiring in 2021, but it worked just fine, I did not suffer PTSD and daughter #1 looked very glamorous indeed.

Sunday morning we went to church in the freezing cold. I was able to wear my vintage fur coat again. The twins were there with their dad and everyone kept their depravity in check. They drew in their journals with half an ear cocked to the service and the sermon on Hebrews 9:1-14. I am very proud of them. In Sunday School they are finishing up the book of Acts. We came back to our house after church for Episcopal/Calvinist Souffle and conversation. Plus, the boy and daughter #1 got my car set up with Apple Play. I tried to read the car manual but it is all Greek to me. Cars are so complicated now and I am such an old lady! Oh well, c’est la vie. I do the best I can.

Sunday night the OM and I returned to church for our annual meeting. We elected new elders and deacons and went through the annual report. I am so blessed to be a member of this church community. I thank God every day that he has led me to this place and that, although it has taken me a long time to get here, I will finish strong.

So–a typical January weekend. I watched The Court Jester (1955), a movie that I just love. Danny Kaye et al will lighten your mood, if you need it lightened. And if you are actually feeling pretty good, as am I, it will just add to your joy. I told the twins they should watch it and they did on Sunday night–according to their Dad, they were “transfixed”–of course they were! Even the credits are great:

Meanwhile daughter #1 and I are working on getting a new blog launched, so maybe this week we’ll have something to show you. Courage, dear hearts!