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Month: March, 2024

He rose

by chuckofish

It is Good Friday and it is time to get serious.

Christmas has a large and colorful cast of characters including not only the three principals themselves, but the angel Gabriel, the innkeeper, the shepherds, the heavenly host, the three Wise Men, Herod, the star of Bethlehem, and even the animals kneeling in the straw. In one form or another we have seen them represented so often that we would recognize them anywhere. We know about the birth in all its detail as well as we know about the births of ourselves or our children, maybe more so. The manger is as familiar as home. We have made a major production of it, and as minor attractions we have added the carols, the tree, the presents, the cards. Santa Claus, Ebenezer Scrooge, and so on. With Easter it is entirely different.

The Gospels are far from clear as to just what happened. It began in the dark. The stone had been rolled aside. Matthew alone speaks of an earthquake. In the tomb there were two white-clad figures or possibly just one. Mary Magdalen seems to have gotten there before anybody else. There was a man she thought at first was the gardener. Perhaps Mary the mother of James was with her and another woman named Joanna. One account says Peter came too with one of the other disciples. Elsewhere the suggestion is that there were only the women and that the disciples, who were somewhere else, didn’t believe the women’s story when they heard it. There was the sound of people running, of voices. Matthew speaks of “fear and great joy.” Confusion was everywhere. There is no agreement even as to the role of Jesus himself. Did he appear at the tomb or only later? Where? To whom did he appear? What did he say? What did he do?

It is not a major production at all, and the minor attractions we have created around it — the bunnies and baskets and bonnets, the dyed eggs — have so little to do with what it’s all about that they neither add much nor subtract much. It’s not really even much of a story when you come right down to it, and that is of course the power of it. It doesn’t have the ring of great drama. It has the ring of truth. I f the Gospel writers had wanted to tell it in a way to convince the world that Jesus indeed rose from the dead, they would presumably have done it with all the skill and fanfare they could muster. Here there is no skill, no fanfare. They seem to be telling it simply the way it was. The narrative is as fragmented, shadowy, incomplete as life itself. When it comes to just what happened, there can be no certainty. That something unimaginable happened, there can be no doubt.

The symbol of Easter is the empty tomb. You can’t depict or domesticate emptiness. You can’t make it into pageants and string it with lights. It doesn’t move people to give presents to each other or sing old songs. It ebbs and flows all around us, the Eastertide. Even the great choruses of Handel’s Messiah sound a little like a handful of crickets chirping under the moon.

He rose. A few saw him briefly and talked to him. If it is true, there is nothing left to say. If it is not true, there is nothing left to say. For believers and unbelievers both, life has never been the same again. For some, neither has death. What is left now is the emptiness. There are those who, like Magdalen, will never stop searching it till they find his face.

~Frederick Buechner, originally published in Whistling in the Dark 

Hallelujah! Sure, we’ll get dressed up and go to church and cook a big brunch and set the table with the good china. But let’s just take a moment, shall we?

And this is interesting–C.S. Lewis admired this play by Dorothy Sayers so much that he re-read it every year during Holy Week. (He re-read things too.) I have never read it, but I think I will.

God was executed by people painfully like us, in a society very similar to our own…by a corrupt church, a timid politician, and a fickle proletariat led by professional agitators.

–Dorothy Sayers

Happy Easter. Christ is risen indeed.

(The painting is The Disciples Peter and John Running to the Sepulchre on the Morning of the Resurrection by the Swiss artist Eugène Burnand, 1898.)

Afterward you will understand

by chuckofish

Today is Maundy Thursday–the day during Holy Week which commemorates the washing of the disciples’ feet and the Last Supper of Jesus Christ with the disciples.

You might want to take some time out of your busy day and think about that.

Now before the Feast of the Passover, when Jesus knew that his hour had come to depart out of this world to the Father, having loved his own who were in the world, he loved them to the end. During supper, when the devil had already put it into the heart of Judas Iscariot, Simon’s son, to betray him, Jesus, knowing that the Father had given all things into his hands, and that he had come from God and was going back to God, rose from supper. He laid aside his outer garments, and taking a towel, tied it around his waist. Then he poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples’ feet and to wipe them with the towel that was wrapped around him. He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, “Lord, do you wash my feet?” Jesus answered him, “What I am doing you do not understand now, but afterward you will understand.” Peter said to him, “You shall never wash my feet.” Jesus answered him, “If I do not wash you, you have no share with me.” Simon Peter said to him, “Lord, not my feet only but also my hands and my head!” 10 Jesus said to him, “The one who has bathed does not need to wash, except for his feet,[a] but is completely clean. And you[b] are clean, but not every one of you.” 11 For he knew who was to betray him; that was why he said, “Not all of you are clean.”

12 When he had washed their feet and put on his outer garments and resumed his place, he said to them, “Do you understand what I have done to you? 13 You call me Teacher and Lord, and you are right, for so I am. 14 If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another’s feet. 15 For I have given you an example, that you also should do just as I have done to you.

–John 13:1-15

Here’s a helpful review of Holy Week in real time.

The painting is by Ford Madox Brown (1821–1893)

This little light of mine

by chuckofish

Easter, unlike Christmas, is not a time one thinks of taking pictures unless one is immortalizing a new Easter outfit. But I have a few classics from days of yore…

My infant DP does not seem to feel very secure in my 3-year old lap, but check out those bunnies and eggs on the table. Lots of books (of course) and my father must have been going through a pipe-smoking phase because there is quite a collection above my head.

Here, my brother and I are posing for a picture before we head off to church on Easter morning when our baby sister blunders into the frame. A classic! Of course, this was back in the day when there were just so many pictures on a roll of film so you couldn’t just click away. I remember yelling at her for wrecking the picture and then being reprimanded for yelling at my precious angel of a sister. C’est la vie.

Here’s another one in front of that same sad tree with my same sad brother forced to hold my hand.

And here we are, having moved to a house, with our dog, Teak. My DP and I are wearing matching dresses. Mine was white with little pink flowers and hers was white with little blue flowers. They had attached petticoats so the skirts really stuck out. This was about 1963-64.

I have seen these pictures re-enacted many times over the intervening years. Some things–like family photos–never change. Thank goodness.

And a happy belated birthday to DN whose big day was yesterday! We love you!

An omniscience of godwits*

by chuckofish

It has been a very windy winter and now it is a very windy spring. And by that, I mean very windy. I am tired of the wind rattling around the corners of my house. And there is not enough hairspray in the world to handle some very bad hair days. I so relate to Peppermint Patty:

Heavy sigh.

Currently I am reading several books.

A few weeks ago when I posted about the movie Our Town (1944), I ordered a used copy of the biography of Thornton Wilder by Penelope Niven published in 2012. She wrote it over a ten-year period and used thousands of his papers housed at Yale which had previously been unavailable. It is, as the New York Times’ review wrote, “deeply researched and fluidly written”. But that seems mild praise for a really good biography. The author understands context and does not judge Wilder from a 21st century elitist viewpoint. She is not on a mission to prove either his gayness or his cisgender identity or to bash him for being a white male. I am enjoying it a lot.

Ask Pastor John, which I mentioned a few weeks ago, summarizes and organizes ten years of the most insightful episodes of John Piper’s popular podcasts. It includes 750 Bible Answers to life’s big questions–seriously, if you have a question, Pastor John attempts to answer it.

Get honest with your motives and plead for help. Determining why we choose what we do is ‘a huge burden.’ Our culture’s media warp us, our sinful hearts shroud our true motives, and we are ‘prone to come up with a theology and an ethical framework that justifies our desires.’

The green book is Volume I in the “The R.C. Sproul Signature Classics” collection which The OM gave me for Christmas a few years ago. It includes The Holiness of God and Chosen by God. It is eminently readable.

Well, you know, it is good to have options when you wake up in the middle of the night and the wind is threatening to blow your house down and you cannot fall back to sleep.

Anne has this to say about an encounter in Marshalls with a Satanist. ““Christians,” she explains, “are quite literally… the most hateful people I have ever encountered in my life.” Not to be pedantic, but this can’t be true because she is a Satan-worshiper, and Satan quite literally is the most hateful being ever to exist. You can’t get more hateful than the Devil. But I can understand why she would feel this way. Discovering you are wrong and are committed to the wrong people and ideas is painful. So painful that each of us resist it to the outermost parts of the sea. But even there the Lord can go and snatch a creature out of the clutches of Satan. This is technically the most loving thing that can ever happen to anyone, even though it might be unpleasant in the moment. But how comfortable is it to get your cheeks pierced and your neck tattooed? I feel like having to chat with a Christian in the beauty section of Marshalls wouldn’t even barely compete.”

And I liked this.

*This is a wonderful reflection on the way we name collectives, whether of birds or people. “Or if you’re in a metaphysical mood, what about an omniscience of godwits, a contradiction of sandpipers, or my personal favorite — an invisibleness of ptarmigans? This is the sound of one hand clapping.”

Now go in peace to love and serve the Lord.

Let the rocks cry out!

by chuckofish

How was your Palm Sunday? The little kids from the Covenant School sang in church and it is always a treat to see them expressing the joy, joy, joy, joy down in their hearts. They processed around the sanctuary with palms and we all sang “All Glory, Laud and Honor”.

We finished up our class on the Westminster Confession and I was happy to hear we will be moving forward with more installments (33 chapters!)

God hath all life, glory, goodness, blessedness, in and of Himself; and is alone in and unto Himself all-sufficient, not standing in need of any creatures which He hath made, nor deriving any glory from them, but only manifesting His own glory in, by, unto, and upon them; He alone is the foundation of all being, of whom, through whom, and to whom, are all things; and hath most sovereign dominion over them, to do by them, for them, or upon them, whatsoever Himself pleaseth.

Amen, brother.

We didn’t have brunch or driveway sittin’ time because the wee bud has lacrosse now on Sundays. Our schedule has changed for the duration, but I can’t complain as the twins are still coming to church/Sunday School. C’est la vie.

Lottie plays on Thursdays.

It struck me recently that I must be very weird (and my entire family) because a) we watch old movies and b) we watch them over and over. I guess most people do not. When the subject of leprosy came up in my Bible study group I reminded everyone how it is a theme in Ben Hur and I got a lot of blank looks. I suggested everyone watch it at Easter. Of course, we watched Ben Hur (1959) once again this weekend and it was great! No computer-generated action scenes. All real.

I ask you, what actors nowadays could be trained/would be willing to drive a chariot? And carry off all the dramatic scenes as well?

Well, for me, the redemption of Judah Ben Hur is still quite powerful after multiple viewings: “And I felt his voice take the sword out of my hand.”

I finished cleaning up the Florida room and started getting ready for next weekend when daughter #2 and DN et al will visit. Hopefully everyone will be well (Ida has an ear infection) and we will be all set for egg hunts and family worship.

Have a good week. Watch an old movie, re-read an old book, call an old friend. Thank God for His mercies which are new every day.

A super fun weekend!

by chuckofish

As my mother mentioned, last week I ventured to north central Illinois to visit Mahomet and my sister and her family. I got back into the rhythm of highway driving–but Mid-Illinois is very different from Mid-MO, much flatter and much windier.

We had a lovely time, of course. Nate made margaritas. But we didn’t get too crazy. We ventured to a park/nature preserve and climbed this tall tower.

The top looked slightly like a prison cell, but there was a pretty view, through the bars!

We also checked out Champaign and had dinner at a hip restaurant downtown. Ida was a doll baby.

We worked on unpacking some boxes and Katie enjoyed some art books.

We also visited Urbana and enjoyed brunch at a diner in town.

When I left on Saturday afternoon, I had to endure the windiest highway driving I have ever experienced. But I did make it–it just took 45 minutes longer to get home!!

The patter of little feet

by chuckofish

Yesterday the wee twins came over to play at my house while their father went to work. They are on spring break and their mom is out of town. On Monday and Tuesday they went on adventures to the zoo and the art museum and to work with their dad.

Lottie said, “It looks like Mamu’s house in here”–referring to the old brown furniture I guess. Smart girl.

At my house we played inside…

…we played outside…

Then we went to Dewey’s for lunch and had a lovely cheese pizza…

…and we went to Kirkwood Park to frolic on the playground.

Then we went home and started to watch the original Star Wars (1977)–until the boy came to pick them up. Interestingly, the twins thought everything in the movie looked like Legos. I said it was the other way around, but why argue?

Then I took a nap.

Later I went and picked up daughter #1 at her house and we went to a concert at Central Pres, featuring the violin virtuoso David Kim from the Philadelphia Orchestra backed up by five musicians from the St. Louis Symphony. They played a Vivaldi program which was quite a treat. It is good to avail oneself of some culchuh sometimes.

Thankfully the week is almost over.

It’s a beautiful day in the neighborhood

by chuckofish

Today is the birthday of Fred McFeely Rogers (1928-2003), Presbyterian minister and television personality, aka Mister Rogers. His work in children’s television is widely lauded, and he received more than forty honorary degrees and many awards, including a Lifetime Achievement Emmy in 1997 and the Presidential Medal of Freedom in 2002. He was inducted into the Television Hall of Fame in 1999.

By the time Mister Rogers’ Neighborhood aired in 1968, I was too old to watch–at 12 I scoffed at his nerdliness–but I have come to appreciate him since then. I can only imagine how nice his calm TV demeanor would have been been to a child compared to a lot of children’s shows with clowns and cartoons. Rogers taught young children about civility, tolerance, sharing, and self-worth “in a reassuring tone and leisurely cadence”. He taught respect.

Things Are Different:
You never know the story
By the cover of the book.
You can’t tell what a dinner’s like
By simply looking at the cook.
It’s something everybody needs to know
Way down deep inside
That things are often different
Than the way they look.
When I put on a costume
To play a fancy part
That costume changes just my looks.
It doesn’t change my heart.
You cannot know what someone’s thinking
By the picture you just took
‘Cause things are often different
From the way they look.

–A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood: the Poetry of Mister Rogers

Well, a toast to Mister Rogers. And as he suggested, take ten seconds to think of the people who helped you become who you are, okay?

Awake my soul and with the sun*

by chuckofish

In my daily Bible reading I have been sojourning in the book of Joshua. I am always impressed with Joshua. He is a real role-model, a mighty man of Israel: steadfast, obedient and brave. Funnily enough, over at desiringGod.com someone was thinking the same thing and wrote this about the humble young leader.

Yes, Joshua learned to trust God’s word, and it guided his life. We all have a lot to learn from him. “Today we know that the LORD is in our midst, because you have not committed this breach of faith against the LORD. Now you have delivered the people of Israel from the hand of the LORD.” (Joshua 22:31)

Speaking of humble young men, I was pleased to see that Scottie Scheffler won the Players Championship, the first professional golfer ever to repeat, a back-to-back winner!

Today we remember Thomas Ken (July 1637 – 19 March 1711), English Anglican cleric, who died on this day in 1711. He wrote many hymns and was one of the seven non-juring bishops when James II reissued his Declaration of Indulgence. Along with his six brethren, Ken was committed to the Tower on June 8, 1688, on a charge of high misdemeanour. Ken was put on trial with the others, which resulted in a verdict of acquittal. He is commemorated on the Episcopal Church liturgical calendar on March 21. I always think of him when we sing the doxology.

Here’s a good word from Randy Alcorn about being a Christian in today’s hostile world. “Jesus is the Audience of One. We will stand before His judgment seat, no one else’s. We should long to hear Him say, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant.’ What other people think won’t matter.”

And in nutball news…

It was cold but sunny here in flyover country yesterday. (Note the down coats.) Today should be warmer. Hopefully I’ll get some more work done on the Florida room and we can open it for business soon.

*Thomas Ken

Now that I’m a winner I have Chick-fil-a for dinner*

by chuckofish

Well, I survived 2 nights/3 days with Mr. Smith and rather enjoyed having the little fellow visit. I talked to more neighbors than in a month of Sundays! Nevertheless, I was relieved to see see him go home with daughter #1 when she arrived from her visit to Illinois!

I forgot it was St. Patrick’s Day on Sunday and went to church wearing a green silk jacket (I thought it looked appropriately springy). Zut alors! I do not as a rule wear green on St. Patrick’s Day! My red-haired Scottish friend Moira, who sits behind me in church, called me on it immediately. (Her husband was wearing an orange tie.) I said, “I forgot what day it is!” Well, I have some Ulster-Scots ancestors, so sue me.

After church the boy dropped by unexpectedly with the twins, who had been hiking in Castlewood State Park. (They are camping at home tonight because the temperature is dropping precipitously–thus the change of plans.)

I was glad to see them, although I had no special Sunday food to share. We snacked on Honey Nut Cheerios. When they left I think they were headed for Uncle Bill’s diner–Mom is out of town.

Daughter #1 came over in the afternoon after her busy day and we watched The Quiet Man–wonderful.

And here’s a new song* from Steve Martin to get your blood pumpin’ on Monday!