dual personalities

Month: January, 2022

“Keep us forever in the path, we pray.”

by chuckofish

Good Monday morning, friends. Daughter #1 here as my mother is traveling back from Maryland today. Early report indicate a wonderful time was had by all. Prayers for a smooth trip back to St. Louis today!

As it is Martin Luther King Jr. Day, and I’m writing this on Sunday, the day when many churches dig into the hymnal to find something appropriate to sing, I thought I’d share the words to “Lift Every Voice and Sing.” It always used to make me cringe listening to Episcopalians sing this hymn once or twice a year. And it never helped that it is not an easy one to sing.

The poem was originally written in 1900 for the 91st anniversary of President Lincoln’s birthday by James Weldon Johnson and set to music by his brother. According to Wikipedia, the hymn is a prayer of thanksgiving for faithfulness and freedom, with imagery evoking the biblical Exodus from slavery to the freedom of the “promised land.” It is featured in 39 different Christian hymnals, and is sung in churches across North America.

Lift every voice and sing,
’Til earth and heaven ring,
Ring with the harmonies of Liberty;
Let our rejoicing rise
High as the listening skies,
Let it resound loud as the rolling sea.
Sing a song full of the faith that the dark past has taught us,
Sing a song full of the hope that the present has brought us;
Facing the rising sun of our new day begun,
Let us march on ’til victory is won.

Stony the road we trod,
Bitter the chastening rod,

Felt in the days when hope unborn had died;
Yet with a steady beat,
Have not our weary feet
Come to the place for which our fathers died.
We have come over a way that with tears has been watered,
We have come, treading our path through the blood of the slaughtered,
Out from the gloomy past,
’Til now we stand at last
Where the white gleam of our bright star is cast.


God of our weary years,
God of our silent tears,
Thou who has brought us thus far on the way;
Thou who has by Thy might
Led us into the light,
Keep us forever in the path, we pray.
Lest our feet stray from the places, our God, where we met Thee,
Lest our hearts drunk with the wine of the world, we forget Thee;
Shadowed beneath Thy hand,
May we forever stand,
True to our God,
True to our native land.

We are like islands in the sea, separate on the surface but connected in the deep.*

by chuckofish

Some months ago, out of the blue, I received an email from an English writer researching a book about Harry Phelan Gibb, an artist who worked in Paris during the early decades of the 20th century. In the course of his research my emailer had discovered that our grandparents, Arthur and Mira Chamberlin, had sublet Gibb’s apartment for a few months in 1921. This fact did not come as a great surprise, since we already knew that our grandparents were abroad at that time. Apparently, Gibb’s apartment proved uninhabitable due to an infestation of bedbugs, so Arthur packed up his pregnant wife and moved her to healthier digs in London, where our father was born a few months later. According to an announcement in the Burlington Free Press, Arthur was working as a correspondent for the “London Morning Express” at the time.

Out of curiosity, I looked up Harry Phelan Gibb (1870-1948) and discovered a perfectly competent English artist, who started out painting pleasing landscapes,

but then fell under the spell of Cézanne and began producing less conventional, post-impressionist paintings.

Unable to find a unique style of his own, Gibb never quite made it in the art world, although Gertrude Stein remained a staunch supporter and friend throughout his adult life. Like many struggling artists, he avoided financial ruin by taking on students. Not long after I received the above-mentioned email, I told my son James about Gibb and his studio, and since he (James) was bored out of his mind working from home due to Covid, he decided to look into the group.

One of Gibb’s students, a Canadian artist named Emily Carr, struck James as particularly interesting. Born and raised in British Columbia, Carr is known for her paintings of indigenous subjects and for the fact that she managed to go to Europe to study art at a time when few young women enjoyed such freedom. She spent 1910 studying in France, and at least some of that time with Phelan Gibb. Here is a photo of her from that period.

You can see a couple of the works she painted in France here. Carr studied with Gibbs only briefly and it seems that she developed her own independent style rather more successfully than he did. I like this painting called Indian Church, don’t you?

All of this brings me to my main point. Imagine my pleasure when I discovered this marvelous article about Emily Carr while exploring a favorite blog, At Sunnyside, whose author is a frequent visitor to this site!

Let us review the chain of relationships. A stranger’s email revealed a connection between our grandparents and an English artist, Phelan Gibb, who lived in Paris. Research into Gibb inspired my son to look into one of Gibb’s students, Emily Carr, and then we discovered Sunnyside’s post about the very same Emily Carr. As anyone can see, it IS a small world and we are all connected in unexpected and wonderful ways – sometimes by a shared past and sometimes by our present interests. We converge through art and literature, people and events. Laugh and call it coincidence if you must; I call it the steady hand of Providence.

*William James

Humble and contrite

by chuckofish

I recently watched The Adventures of Mark Twain (1944) starring Frederic March as Missouri’s favorite son. It gives a sanitized look at the great man’s life but it is really pretty good. It inspired me anyway to take down “Life on the Mississippi” from its place on the shelf and I have been reading it.

Not surprisingly, it is very good and extremely readable. Have you read any Twain lately?

I have also been following the Gospel Coalitions’s daily “Read the Bible” plan and so far so good (12 days in!). I am currently reading a chapter a day of Genesis, Matthew, Nehemiah and Acts. (I am taking notes, because my memory is so bad!) Breaking it up this way is a good idea, since you don’t get bogged down in the Old Testament and you also see how everything in the OT points to the fulfilling of its prophesy, the coming of our savior, Christ Jesus. As Don Carson says, “When you read, remember that God himself has declared, ‘This is the one I esteem: he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word’” (Isa. 66:2).

It is easy to see why 19th century American writers were so good–they were immersed in the Bible, steeped in its vocabulary and vivid visualizations. So many of today’s writers write as if they grew up watching made-for-tv movies and not reading much. This does not make for good literature.

I found this article about C. S. Lewis and Billy Graham on the subject of Angels to be interesting. And here’s what Calvin thought about Angels. “Calvin’s view about angels is indeed not spectacular in the sense that it offers new and unexpected insights into the world of angels or presents an impressive and new, reformed angelology. But on the other hand it can be called spectacular in the sense that for Calvin, angels play a greater role in the life of the believer than could be drawn from the spirituality of the average Reformed believer.”

This is an interesting article. “Put simply, cancel culture is a culture of bullying. What starts with a difference of ideas ends with a willful public destruction of other human beings. Those who claimed to be the ones bullied have now become the bullies themselves, all because of a shift of power…Power is the critical concept, here. Cancel culture is based on the assumption that power—not truth—is the only way to drive cultural change.”

I am leaving tomorrow to visit daughter #2, baby Katie and DN in far-off Maryland, so wish me luck and traveling mercies. I’ll be flying…

…no choo-choo trains for me this time! I can’t wait to see everyone and check out their new house!

Love that red jumper made by her great-grandmother!

Up in the land of the ice snow.

by chuckofish

This weekend, I took a brisk walk to the new pedestrian bridge near the Capitol that takes visitors over the train tracks to a new park right on the riverfront. It was about 15 degrees in the sun, but I had on my big puffy coat with the faux-fur trimmed hood, so I was toasty(ish).

There are trails for walking and although it is not a terribly scenic time to visit the river’s edge, I am looking forward to Spring days when I can escape the office in the afternoon for a little sunshine.

The new bridge/park provides a fresh perspective on the river in Jefferson City. Before this, you could really only view it from a high bluff and with the train tracks directly below.

I love when there are chunky pieces of ice in the river. Somehow, ice flowing down the river doesn’t seem real to me. Like, it might happen in a fantasy book or a cartoon, but not real life. Last year, five miles upstream, there was a giant ice jam that caused water levels to drop on the Missouri River. Nature is wild.

So, while I’m not technically up in the land of the ice and snow like the blog post title indicates, we’ve at least got the vibe.

“My thanksgiving is perpetual”*

by chuckofish

Today is the feast day in the Anglican Church of Mary Mitchell Slessor (1848-1915), a Scottish Presbyterian missionary in Nigeria. She is most famous for having stopped the common practice of infanticide of twins in Okoyong, an area of Cross River State, Nigeria. She was 27 and had been a factory worker for 14 years when she heard that David Livingstone, the famous missionary and explorer, had died. She decided she wanted to follow in his footsteps. Her’s is quite the story. More here.

Today is the 76th birthday of John Piper, theologian, pastor, and chancellor of Bethlehem College and Seminary in Minneapolis, MN. I have quoted him quite a bit on this blog and he has been quite influential in my spiritual walk. He does not mince words. Here are his 10 reasons to read the Bible every day. And here’s a clip from his famous “Don’t Waste Your Life” sermon.

I would toast him, but he’s a Baptist and might not approve of that. He would probably not approve of me making that little joke either. I confess I am always fighting my “allergy to seriousness.” But I am serious about my admiration for John Piper.

In other news, I did another puzzle over the weekend.

This was a fun one for obvious reasons. It inspired me to watch Errol Flynn in San Antonio (1945), a Warner Brothers technicolor western, but it was disappointing.

Although still in his prime at 36, Flynn is giving about a 50% effort and that is not enough. Plus, I never thought Flynn and Alexis Smith had much chemistry and the supporting cast is the WB B team. I expected more from the Alan LeMay/W.S. Burnett screenplay. Well, you win some, you lose some. C’est la vie.

Finally, here’s a positive story about good things actually happening in Chicago. “We understand that God is sovereign in all things, including the trials we went through during our leadership transition, COVID, and the individual trials in the lives of our members. We understand that ultimately it is in God that we live and move and have our existence (Acts 17:28), and that he is sovereign over every human heart, head, and hands (Prov. 16:9Isa. 46:9–10).”

*Henry David Thoreau

You and I will meet again

by chuckofish

God has blessed me with some great friends and Nicki was a true blessing to me for over thirty years. She died last week after a slow slide into Alzheimers, so it was a long goodbye, but heartbreaking nonetheless. After my mother died when I was 32, I sorely needed an older, wiser friend. Nicki entered my life at just the right moment a few years later and became that friend. 

I had three young children and a 12-year old marriage. She became my spiritual advisor and then my ‘spiritual friend’ to whom I told everything. She understood all my ups and downs. She knew my sins of commission and omission and she still loved me. She taught me many things. She taught me the power of prayer and the spiritual practice of the daily examen. She taught me to lower my expectations when it came to other human beings. Most importantly, she taught me to depend on God and not on people.

She was an impressive person. Beautiful, poised, a shining light in the community and a pillar of the Episcopal Church, she still had time for me. Wherever we went for lunch, she ran into someone she knew. She knew literally everyone. Being her friend gave me confidence. When I became the director of my flyover institute, she started taking classes and she brought her friends. She was always positive and supportive. She knit me a prayer shawl when I was going through chemotherapy.

I hadn’t seen her since we all went home to flatten the curve in March 2020, and by then she was fading fast into the shroud of Alzheimers. Now she is in Paradise with Jesus.

I won’t say goodbye my friend
For you and I will meet again

A red-winged hawk is circling
The blacktop stretches out for days
How could I get so close to you
And still feel so far away?
I hear a voice come on the wind
Sayin’ you and I will meet again

I will also note the passing last week of film director, Peter Bogdanovich. If you have an hour, I recommend you watch this YouTube video of a lecture he gave at Hillsdale College in 2020, where he talks about John Ford. He is already suffering with Parkinsons’s, but it is a fascinating presentation.

Into paradise may the angels lead thee, and at thy coming may the martyrs receive thee, and bring thee into the holy city Jerusalem.

Double your fun

by chuckofish

The holiday festivities are well and truly over, and we have returned to reality. Poor James threw his back out on Tuesday and has been confined to his bed and forced to survive on chocolate and ibuprofen ever since. I had my booster shot yesterday, so we’re taking things slowly around here and finding ways to cheer ourselves up. So far, we’ve come up with two foolproof solutions to the January doldrums.

First, play with your Christmas presents. My BFF gave me this wonderful Leo Messi action figure that really kicks the ball! Just pull back the plastic tab on his left foot and wham-o, you score!

If your Christmas presents didn’t include such a gift, you can always watch Messi on Youtube. We agree that there is something mysteriously uplifting about watching him play. Start 2:06 into the video and you’ll see.

Second, go find a Yul Brynner movie you haven’t seen yet and settle down to watch. I guarantee you won’t regret it. Last night James and I enjoyed The Double Man, a 1967 classic in which master spy, Dan Slater (Yul), travels to Austria to investigate his son’s death in a skiing accident. Here he is on the cable lift questioning Gina Ericson (Britt Ekland), one of the last people to see the boy alive, and he will stop at nothing to get answers…

We like his Tyrolian hat, but later he switches to a balaclava. Is there a pandemic?

No, there are TWO Dan Slaters! Which is the real one? It’s a Russian plot!

This movie has everything: a jaunty 1960s soundtrack, some enthusiastic oompa-band-led night skiing, glamorous parties, Russian bad guys, and a couple of good chases. Of course, none of that would matter without Yul’s feline walk and gravely voice. He owns every scene.

There. Doesn’t reading about it make you feel cheerier? Think what watching Yul will do for your mood and have a great weekend!

Hallelujah the earth replies

by chuckofish

The Star of Bethlehem by Burne-Jones

Today is Epiphany which marks the final celebratory day of Christmas. So let’s all sing “We Three Kings,” which was written by John Henry Hopkins Jr. in 1857. At the time of composing the carol, Hopkins served as the rector of Christ Episcopal Church in Williamsport, PA. He wrote it for a Christmas pageant. It was the first widely popular Christmas carol written in America. (Bonus fun fact: Hopkins gave the eulogy at the funeral of President Ulysses Grant in 1885.)

We all learned this hymn as four-year olds for our first Christmas pageant, which back in the day, was in school. We thought it was very cool–so dramatic and kind of spooky with the gathering doom–and all that sorrowing, sighing, bleeding, dying. I think they turned off the lights and we turned on our little candle-looking flashlights for a special effect. There was no misunderstanding the end of the story for the baby in the manger. Here’s the BYU men’s chorus singing it:

Meanwhile I have packed up all of my Christmas decorations and taken them to the basement. However, I keep finding strays…

This always happens. C’est la vie.

If you are in need of a spiritual pick-me-up, I recommend watching The Inn of the Sixth Happiness (1958) which tells the story of the real-life Gladys Aylward (1902-70), a former English domestic who became a Christian missionary in China in the 1930s.

In 1940 she shepherded more than 100 children over the mountains to safety at the height of the Sino-Japanese war. Ingrid Bergman is 100% believable as the missionary and her relationship with Curt Jergens as the Chinese Colonel, although embellished, is very romantic. Robert Donat, in his final role, is terrific. What can I say, when I watched it last night, I cried through the whole movie. (Some time ago I read the book by Alan Burgess, The Small Woman, on which the film is based, and it is very good too.)

This weekend we will celebrate daughter #3’s birthday which is actually today–bonne anniversaire!–thus wrapping up all the family birthday’s between November 28 and today.

I pray for the day ahead and that I might bring Glory to God, in word, thought and deed. I thank God that his mercies are new to me every morning. I thank God that his grace is sufficient for all situations that I may encounter.

“Now if you’ll excuse me, I’ll just go sit by the pool and read some fiction. Like a bimbo.”

by chuckofish

Well, good Wednesday morning. It is Daughter #1 back again after a two-week break. I know my last post had no pictures and left some readers concerned about my mental state. But, never fear. I’ve been back at work two-days and already quoted in the paper once in an article where it was necessary to use my full name and title and that of the other five spokespeople who all replied with slight variations on the word “no.” Gotta hit that word count.

Nevertheless, I persist.

Christmas gift from a co-worker.

The big news in my neck of the woods is that I bought a new car! Yes, I know it’s the worst possible time to buy a new car but I’d been thinking about it for awhile. Plus, when my old car was damaged in the severe weather several weeks ago, I was curious about if the trade in price would be way less than the value or just the value less the amount of the damage. Turns out, the value was just fine. The dealer had the exact model and color I wanted (out of the two cars on the lot) and it felt like providence. I’m very happy and feel much more secure on the highway in my small SUV than I did in my zoom zoom car.

It looks much bigger from this angle, but she’s real cute.

In other big news, while home over the break, I started reading the Lymond Chronicles by Dorothy Dunnett and I must admit, I can’t put the first book down. Some of you may recall from prior posts that I’ve had trouble reading for the past two years. My mother and I were talking about how little we read in 2021 and I jokingly suggested my list was like four books…and then it was like four books. So, it is wonderful to be reading again. This book is full of subtlety and has many characters plus it takes place in 16th century Scotland, so, it’s light reading. Just kidding. It is not an easy read–but it is really enjoyable.

One of my goals for the year is to take my mushy brain and make it rock hard again. (Seriously, if you haven’t been clicking the hyperlinks in my posts, you’re really missing out).

I’ll wrap this up with some funny things from the internet to get you ready to face the day.

Many are the plans in the mind of man

by chuckofish

These things have served their purpose: let them be.
So with your own, and pray they be forgiven
By others, as I pray you to forgive
Both bad and good. Last season’s fruit is eaten
And the fullfed beast shall kick the empty pail.
For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.

T.S. Eliot, from Little Giddings

Like I said yesterday, I am not going to overdo the making of plans and goal-setting in the new year, but daughter #1 and I did get started on the time-consuming work of putting away Christmas over the weekend.

I still have a lot to do, but the two trees are down and the ornaments packed safely in their designated boxes. It always feels good to get things cleaned up in January, don’t you think?

After packing boxes and toting them to the basement, we watched Howard Hawks’ Rio Bravo (1959) to ring in the new year. It is, of course, an American classic–the brave sheriff (John Wayne), standing alone against the rich and powerful bad guy with his legion of paid gunmen, is aided by his friends, a motley crew consisting of a drunk, a crippled old man, a female card shark, a tiny Hispanic innkeeper, and a reluctant youth. Although he eschews their aid, they will not be dissuaded from helping.

The movie was a huge hit world-wide. Watch this climactic scene dubbed in French! (It’s not quite the same without John Wayne’s distinctive voice and manner…”Burdette! Nathan Burdette!”)

We also watched The Court Jester (1955)–another favorite with Danny Kaye and a stellar supporting cast. Can you say, “The pellet with the poison’s in the vessel with the pestle; the chalice from the palace has the brew that is true!”?

So I am off to a good start of vintage movie viewing in the new year. I cannot remember the last movie I saw that was made recently. If I wrack my brain, all I can come up with is Once Upon a Time in Hollywood (2020) or Ford v Ferrari (2020)–good grief. Last year was a total wash-out! I will stick with the classics–In fact, I am in the mood for a Paul Newman retrospective, aren’t you?

In other news, I have begun my Bible reading plan and I am working on one of my new puzzles.

I am also going to endeavor to read some actual books and not just my MacBook.

This sums up very well how I feel about everything. “Popularity makes a poor life preserver.”

Well, onward and upward. “Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand.” (Proverbs 19:21)