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Month: October, 2020

Help of the helpless

by chuckofish

Truly, the last rose of summer

I read recently that one of our local scions, in his later years, did a three-minute plank exercise each morning, propping himself up on his elbows and toes while singing “Abide With Me,” reciting the Lord’s Prayer and praying for loved ones. I think this is just a great exercise plan and I have started doing it. So far, I am unable to maintain the plank for the full time, so I shift into a yoga pose taught to me by one of my daughters.

Abide with me, fast falls the eventide
The darkness deepens Lord, with me abide
When other helpers fail and comforts flee
Help of the helpless, oh, abide with me

That “help of the helpless” seems particularly appropriate for an exercise descriptive.

Anyway, I am taking today off–no Zoom meetings, so it is possible–and I’m getting some ‘stuff’ done. I am going for my flu shot and I am having my hair cut. Woohoo!

In other news, I am forcing myself to continue reading Jack by Marilynne Robinson. Sad to say, Jack, as the NYT reviewer put it, is “the dullest bad boy in the history of bad boys.”  And he is not, in the long run, very likable. Worst of all, the book is kind of boring. If it were written by anybody else, I would not finish it. Sigh.

I enjoyed this article about scrubbing away one’s anxiety. “This is why I am so glad that my church’s lectionary is taking us through the book of Exodus right now. I’m reminded that we are not the first group of people to be led through hard times. We are not the first people to grumble and whine and not trust that God will provide. We aren’t even the first ones to do dumb things to distract ourselves from the problems that weigh us down.”

I confess that I have contemplated buying a power-washer.

Have you started your Christmas shopping? You know this year it’s going to creep up on us. It may feel like it’s still May, but it is not! It is mid-October. I mean, I don’t want to alarm anyone, but Christmas is, indeed, 77 days away.

This made me laugh:

So get out this weekend and enjoy the fine fall weather! Do some Christmas shopping! Shop local! And remember:

Seek, resolutely, the true and indestructible value that lies hidden in…petty and wearisome incidents*

by chuckofish

Congratulations on making it to Thursday for your weekly dose of darling. I had one of those weeks when I felt incredibly busy but also like I got nothing done, so that has been fun. This is partly because I added more things to my plate: I have been working on an essay, which was due on Tuesday and which I now need to revise. (What? How am I doing this? I truly don’t know.) Anyway, it’s about Nathaniel Hawthorne’s The Custom-House, a sketch in which he pokes a lot of fun at his boring colleagues and offers the sound advice that I have quoted above.

Moving on! Katie had a pretty solid week of sleeping, eating, kicking her feet in the air, and crushing tummy time. She was declared a healthy four-month-old at her pediatrician appointment, where she weighed in at 15 lbs 4 oz (72nd percentile) and measured 25.5 inches long (88th percentile). Tall baby!

She kicks the poles and makes the attachments shake — brilliant
So many options!

We received some more adorable drool bibs from Aunt Mary. Some are made with remnants from my grandmother Mary’s stash of fabric, which I think is really, really nice. Mamu’s basement clean-out is really paying off! The Halloween bib matches a witch costume that I wore multiple times growing up, and which I can’t wait for Katie to wear one day. For now, she can don her festive bib and make her mother feel sappy.

Trading in a backyard view for a waterfront view

This weekend, we are escaping to an Airbnb on the Chesapeake Bay. This will be the first time I have taken a trip anywhere since March, unless you count our hospital stay when Katie was born. (Haha.) Here’s hoping a little peace and quiet (and a house with no chores) prove to be restorative!

Less fret, more faith.

by chuckofish

I did not want to get up this morning. I woke up several times in the middle of the night thinking. And I’ve started doing this new thing where I wake up at 6 a.m. and then don’t really start to fall asleep again until it’s time to get up. It’s not great.

But, I did eventually get up to face the day. I decided to make a cup of coffee for a change and put it in a pretty cup and saucer.

And I don’t know if it was the blue and white china or the caffeine, but it did make me feel better.

For work today, I got to take a road trip to Knob Noster because the bossman had a meeting and then we got to see the B-2 stealth bombers at Whiteman AFB. It was very, very cool. I did have to climb and up down several ladders (to get an above the plane view and to get into the cockpit) but I managed to do that without embarrassing myself. Sadly, I wasn’t allowed to take pictures, because you know, military secrets.

Of course, this meant a drive through Tipton, the billiards capital of the world and home of the infamous 8-ball water tower. It cracks me up whenever we drive through.

And if you watched that short documentary I included on the blog several months ago, you know how devastating this news is:

The title of this blog post comes from a Max Lucado book (it’s more of a booklet) my mother kindly ordered for me while trying to hit the free shipping minimum on a website. Most of it is pretty duh, but I did like this:

“The presence of anxiety is unavoidable, but the prison of anxiety is optional.”

–Max Lucado

This, to me, is the key. Anxiety is real. And there is plenty to be anxious about. But, we can’t let it keep us from living our lives. And we can’t be afraid.

“Will you walk into my parlour?” said a spider to a fly”*

by chuckofish

As if things weren’t scary enough in the world, a Missouri Department of Conservation employee took a picture of this is southwest MO:

Allegedly the work of one orb weaver spider, an arachnid known for its intricate web designs, this spider web was constructed between two trees. What the heck was the spider hoping to catch?

Well, it is October and around here that means Halloween.

The limit of my Halloween decorations

And in my neck of the woods, that means house decorations–not just some vintage candles in your window. Some people go really overboard, I must say. But who am I to judge?

There are a variety of skeletons and giant spiders attacking this house…across the street from
us. Zut alors!

If decorating your yard to look like a graveyard makes you happy, so be it. And if you want to spend hundreds of dollars buying huge blow up inflatables, so be it.

I think you’re crazy, but that’s your choice.

A bargain at $199.00!

“All things on earth point home in old October; sailors to sea, travellers to walls and fences, hunters to field and hollow and the long voice of the hounds, the lover to the love he has forsaken.” (Thomas Wolfe)

I doubt if old Thomas Wolfe ever dreamed of this.

*Mary Howitt (1799–1888)

“His eye is on the sparrow”*

by chuckofish

I had a quiet weekend. There were no margaritas and no wee babes. I went to an estate sale and to TJ Maxx. I swept out the garage. I moved my plants inside from the Florida room. (We turned the heat on!) I put my spring/summer clothes away and got out my turtlenecks.

I started reading Marilynne Robinson’s newest book, Jack. It takes place in St. Louis.

St. Louis was quite a town. He wondered if Della had ever seen Eads Bridge from down by the water. It. looked like the walls of Troy. Gigantic, tawny stones, soaring arches. Of course, the stones themselves would be as ancient as the stones of Troy, and the fossils in both of them older, by the measure of the little lives that had fallen into whatever it was, clay by the color of it. And the eons they had spent evolving so they could end up there.

I literally slept through Marooned (1969), a movie I had not seen since I saw it at the movies back in the day. (I still haven’t seen it.) Despite Gregory Peck, Richard Crenna, Gene Hackman, James Franciscus, David Janssen, and John Sturges directing, this movie about three American astronauts stranded in space could not hold my attention. Maybe I’ll try again.

And maybe not.

I watched Key Largo (1948) which is a great movie. It is my favorite of the Bogart/Bacall films and, as I’ve said many times, Claire Trevor is spectacular. Lauren Bacall takes a backseat in this movie, allowing Claire to shine in the spotlight, but in her own quiet way, she was never better and she looks great. Edward G. Robinson is pretty swell too as a bully and a coward.

In one of the filler segments on TCM, the six hosts talked about what movies they watch in order to feel better in trying times. It was interesting and, not surprisingly, their choices to me were quite banal–but the point is, to each his own. The two women picked musicals that lifted their spirits and the men all picked their favorite movies–you know, The Godfather, Taxi Driver etc. I would agree that comfort to me comes in the form of my favorites, be they comedies or dramas. I happened to watch part of The Thomas Crown Affair (1968) while I was folding laundry, and felt much better having seen ol’ Steve McQueen drive that dune buggy on the beach. Faye Dunaway laughs and loses her cool and squeals in terror and then laughs. It seemed very real.

A quiet weekend at home is fine. I enjoyed seeing texted pictures of my busy grandchildren playing soccer…

at the playground…

and taking walks in the stroller…

Pax vobiscum or “Well, my friend, are you ready to do me this service?”.

And now it is Monday and we’ll start another week with a little help from Marvin Gaye, hopefully on the right note:

*”I sing because I’m happy/And I sing because I’m free

His eye is on the sparrow/And I know Jesus watches me” (Harvey Fuqua)

Don’t tell me the moon is shining; show me the glint of light on broken glass*

by chuckofish

One of the real joys of life is learning new things. This week I learned all about ancient glassmaking and was amazed to discover some of the wonderful objects that have survived. Glassmaking didn’t really take off until the 1st century BC when some smart bloke invented the art of glassblowing. Until then they made pretty, but rather clunky, glass bottles by working them around a clay/dung core and then scraping out the core afterward. Core-formed glasswork is believed to have developed in the Near East sometime around the 16th century BC. Here’s an example of core-formed glass from Syria.

The design comes from adding spirals of colored glass and then raking them to create the pattern. It’s certainly pretty and represents a major technological advancement, but when compared to blown glass, well, it looks more like something you’d buy at a garage sale on the table marked “shabby chic”. Look at this 1st century BC Cantharus from the Metropolitan Museum of Art and you’ll see what I mean.

Sometimes glassmakers used molds to create beautiful designs. A Roman master named Ennion, working in the early first century AD, achieved the highest level of the art. Here’s an example of his work from the Corning Museum of Glass (which is now high on my bucket list of places to visit!).

And here’s another of Ennion’s works from the Met just to prove that cobalt blue wasn’t the only color they used. It’s just my favorite.

By the late Roman Empire, in the 4th and 5th centuries AD glassmaking had reached its apogee; the cage-cup (diatretum) represents the extremes to which glassmakers would go for their art. Here’s a 4th century AD example from the Heritage museum Pljevja, Montenegro.

As I understand it, cage-cups were made by pouring two layers of (often) different colored glass together and then carving — yes, carving — the outer one into a delicate cage. One slip would ruin the whole thing. They often finished the cup off with a phrase carved along the top.

Of course, the marvel isn’t just that the ancients could make such gorgeous pieces but that so many survived largely intact. I wonder what, if any, of our belongings will still be around in two thousand years? Take a look around your abode and think about it. I know I will.

In the meantime, I hope you can enjoy a beautiful fall weekend!

*Anton Checkov

“To go with the drift of things, To yield with a grace to reason”*

by chuckofish

It is October! We are “back at school” but still on Zoom. Sigh. Thankfully, the weather is beautiful and fall-like and it is Friday. The leaves are turning, but we won’t hit peak for weeks here in flyover country.

The boy came over yesterday afternoon to help haul things out to the curb for (another) bulky trash pickup. We got rid of a lot of ‘stuff’ that daughter #1 and I bagged up over the last few weekends, plus some big items that were just taking up space.

The wee laddie accompanied his dad and when I was tidying up the living room before they went home, I found him …

…in the bag of Beanie Babies! Quel nutball!

I thought this article was typical of Apartment Therapy and there “must do,” right now, apocalyptic, “as the climate crisis grows more dire” attitude to everything, but it did get me thinking. If you had to leave home because of an emergency, what would you grab?

This was a thoughtful post about Raskolnikov and the Gospel of Luke and includes this provocative line, “Just prior to this, my mother had revitalized her commitment to the local Episcopal church after years of shoddy attendance.”

This is so true.

TCM will be celebrating 30 years of The Film Foundation in October so I am looking forward to watching a lot of good movies. Last night I watched one of my favorites: La Strada (1954), Fellini’s masterpiece.

“Its purpose is – how should I know? If I knew, I’d be…the Almighty, who knows everything. When you’re born. When you die. Who knows? No, I don’t know what this pebble’s purpose is, but it must have one, because if this pebble has no purpose, then everything is pointless. Even the stars! At least, I think so. And you too. You have a purpose too.”

I will be on my own this weekend, so it will be a quiet one. Believe me, I need one! How about you?

*Robert Frost, “Reluctance”

(Just about) 4 months old

by chuckofish

4 months — can you believe it? I think that means we’ve had a pandemic-baby longer than we had a pandemic-pregnancy. Ye gods.

I do not have a whole lot of news this week, which actually feels like a good thing: Katiebelle has settled into a real routine! We are happy to know all her little cues and how to respond them.

We sure do love our new drool bibs from Aunt Mary…
…and we sure do need them!!

The little babe does continue to grow bigger and bigger, and even graduated to the actual stroller seat (as opposed to the car seat, which can click into the stroller). She was thrilled to have the wiggle room and improved view of her parents and surroundings. (No way am I ready for her to face out yet!)

Jazz hands, much?

We are also endlessly amused by her facial expressions — Katie must take after her cousin Lottie.

She is hardcore judging us. Here’s hoping the weekend feels less like that, and more like this:

Footloose and fancy-free