dual personalities

Month: June, 2020

“You must have been something, a real tiny kid”*

by chuckofish

Catherine is 2 weeks old!

Two weeks feels like a huge milestone for these first-time parents. She has gained precisely the right amount of weight (now 9 lbs 5 oz!) and is off the charts for height. (The doctor says, “She’ll definitely be taller than 5 foot 4!” OK.) I feel affirmed that I have been successfully feeding her, given how unknowable it all felt in the beginning. But as everyone has told us, it probably isn’t all the advice books and frantic Googling that makes good parenting — just loving her and doing our best.

We recently did laundry and it felt bizarre to see the clothes we had worn to the hospital. A day before baby! Doesn’t it seem like a lifetime ago? Well, I keep saying, it was a lifetime — her’s!

“Mom, these newborn leggings are capri pants now!”

Yes, I am that mom waxing philosophical about time passing. We are just happy that she is doing well, which means we are doing well. Here’s to a lifetime of continuing to do our best!

*Talking Heads, “Dream Operator”

“I just try to go on a straight line and stay on it, stay on the level.”

by chuckofish

“Probably because gospel music is the music of good news and in these days there just isn’t any. Good news in today’s world is like a fugitive, treated like a hoodlum and put on the run. Castigated. All we see is good-for-nothing news. And we have to thank the media industry for that. It stirs people up. Gossip and dirty laundry. Dark news that depresses and horrifies you.

On the other hand, gospel news is exemplary. It can give you courage. You can pace your life accordingly, or try to, anyway. And you can do it with honor and principles. There are theories of truth in gospel but to most people it’s unimportant. Their lives are lived out too fast. Too many bad influences. Sex and politics and murder is the way to go if you want to get people’s attention. It excites us, that’s our problem.”

Y’all, I can’t believe that no one has blogged about this yet. Last week, the New York Times published an interview with Bob Dylan. The reporter is a moron who clearly went to the Tom Chiarella school of interview writing (the irony here, is that I literally had Tom Chiarella as a teacher) which means the interview is more about the reporter and how cool/funny/smart he is.

Luckily, Bob rolls with it. He doesn’t get riled by the reporter’s stupidity. He’s used to their nonsense. They’ve been ‘not getting him’ for 60 years.

This doesn’t have my favorite part about the “hard rain” being just a hard rain.

So, while it pains me to suggest you read something from the New York Times, I highly recommend this interview.

One thing that I love about this interview is the rhythmic cadence of the way he speaks. It is so unlike anyone else.

“It’s one of those where you write it on instinct. Kind of in a trance state. Most of my recent songs are like that. The lyrics are the real thing, tangible, they’re not metaphors. The songs seem to know themselves and they know that I can sing them, vocally and rhythmically. They kind of write themselves and count on me to sing them.”

I could really just keep copying and pasting quotes from the interview, but I won’t.

In other news, I’ve spent basically the last two days on conference calls and I really just can’t. I feel like my brain is absolute mush. And it’s only Tuesday!

“Besides, rereading, not reading, is what counts.”*

by chuckofish

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As you know, I am a great re-reader of books and poems and a re-watcher of movies.

The past and present wilt—I have fill’d them, emptied them.
And proceed to fill my next fold of the future.

Listener up there! what have you to confide to me?
Look in my face while I snuff the sidle of evening,
(Talk honestly, no one else hears you, and I stay only a minute longer.)

Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself,
(I am large, I contain multitudes.)

I concentrate toward them that are nigh, I wait on the door-slab.

Who has done his day’s work? who will soonest be through with his supper?
Who wishes to walk with me?

Will you speak before I am gone? will you prove already too late?

–Walt Whitman, Song of Myself, 51

When daughter #1 visits, we like to re-listen to music, even old LPs from my parents’ house. But listening to a new Bob album is quite a treat.

I sing the songs of experience like William Blake
I have no apologies to make

Treat yourself.

I’ll keep the path open, the path in my mind
I’ll see to it that there’s no love left behind
I’ll play Beethoven’s sonatas, and Chopin’s preludes
I contain multitudes

*Jorge Luis Borges

“Blessed be the Lord who daily loadeth us with benefits.”*

by chuckofish

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FaceTiming with Mamu and Aunt Mary

This is as close as I got to baby Katiebelle this weekend, but we communicated as best we could. She is truly a cupcake of love.

Daughter #1 came into town for Happy Hour and we pretended we were at Grant’s Farm, eating big soft pretzels and drinking an Anheuser-Busch product in the courtyard of the Bauernhof.

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You gotta make your own fun.

We went to our first estate sale in many moons (wearing masks, of course) and investigated a new neighborhood, but didn’t find any treasures we couldn’t live without. We drove to JoAnn’s Fabrics, but there was a line outside of people waiting to get in (!) so we kept going. The OM ordered a new Cozy Coupe at Target and we picked it up curbside and brought it home for him to put together, which he did with a modicum of cursing.

The updated model is pretty darn cute. Can’t wait for the wee bud to try it out next weekend. Lottiebelle will get her turn, of course, but in reality she prefers to boss her brother around tell her brother where to drive (“Go there!”)

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Driving the old ’88 model

It was a nice weekend, but it’s back to the salt mine and trying to figure out how we’re going to handle taking our courses online in a few weeks. Stressful, to say the least. As always, there was help in the week’s lectionary:

Since we are justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have obtained access to this grace in which we stand; and we boast in our hope of sharing the glory of God. And not only that, but we also boast in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit that has been given to us. For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. Indeed, rarely will anyone die for a righteous person– though perhaps for a good person someone might actually dare to die. But God proves his love for us in that while we still were sinners Christ died for us. (Romans 5: 1-8)

Bonus flashback: Remember when Lottiebelle was the same size as the Bitty Baby?

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*Psalm 68:19

Spring clean-up

by chuckofish

I love this time of year! The weather (at the moment) is cool, dry and breezy and there aren’t many bugs. This is the perfect time for outside projects, and since we both desperately needed some time away from work and the news, we headed to our cabin last weekend to do some much-needed clean-up. The DH plugged away at a big fallen tree,

while I washed the porch furniture and harvested more rhubarb to make another rhubarb crumble.

This time I added a few strawberries and remembered to take a picture, although not until we had sampled some.

Back in the woods, we also took time to enjoy nature. I love the wild iris that bloom at the edge of the beaver pond. They are a protected wildflower up here, but people come along and cut them anyway, so it was heartening to see so many.

The water in the pond is high, the water lilies are thriving, and the dam has been improved — all signs that beavers have moved in. The beavers do a great job managing the pond, but because it is located next to the road and sometimes floods it, the county always traps the beavers. We will get to enjoy their presence but briefly.

It did us good to get away from our computers for a day. In fact, the physical labor was so restorative (if you don’t count all the resulting aches and pains) that we have decided tackle some home improvement too.

Today we are going to start painting one of the bedrooms here at home. Yesterday we moved all the furniture and books (so many books) into another room, washed the walls, and bought the paint. After we’ve had our morning tea, we’ll get to work. I’m looking forward to it!

If the world is making you glum, do something! Anything — activity will make you feel better, at least for a time.

Have a productive weekend!

Natural circumstances and the perversity of human will

by chuckofish

Another week almost gone with the wind. They do go by. I had a busy week “at work” and I went to a Vestry meeting. Yes, the Vestry meeting was actually at church, in Albright Hall, where we sat 6 feet apart and wore masks. It was a little ridiculous, but at least we were together all in one place. It felt kind of normal. We are the only Episcopal Church in the diocese that is meeting together on Sunday and I am proud of our Rector who is jumping through a lot of hoops to do this. I have a feeling there are many ministers/priests who are sleeping through this period and glad of the excused absence.

I liked Paul Walker’s daily devotion (from Charlottesville) the other day, which read in part:

I also went to the dentist (high fives all around) and drove to pick up a Victorian chair I won on the online auction held at our local auction house. It is a needlepoint rescue and nothing special, but it felt good to be back in the game.

Of course, there has been much FaceTiming and cooing over our sweet Katiebelle. She has changed so much in her first week!

And look how confident DN is getting compared to 3 years ago when he practiced holding the wee babes.

The wee babes at six months are about the same size as Katiebelle at one week!

Meanwhile the OM and I have been watching The Last Ship, a series on Hulu that was originally aired on TNT back in 2014, about the crew of a U.S. naval destroyer that is forced to confront the reality of a new existence when a pandemic kills off most of the earth’s population. Timely, right? It stars Eric Dane and Adam Baldwin. We are enjoying it and I recommend it if you are in the mood for an action series that has some depth to it. And the leads are handsome.

We also watched 49th Parallel (1941), a British war film made by the Pressburger/Powell team with the help of Leslie Howard, Laurence Olivier and Raymond Massey to help sway American opinion in favor of joining the war effort. It is pretty good and maybe it was considered tough stuff back then, but the Canadians seemed rather dim-witted and trusting next to the dirty Nazis who are trying to escape the RMP. I guess that was the point.

You can watch it on Amazon Prime.

Have a good weekend!

One week with baby!

by chuckofish

We made it through our first week with baby Catherine and we are feeling relatively good!

How could we not, when she is this adorable?

We have filed her nails since this photo was taken 😦

It was a big week: we left the hospital after about 48 hours, and since then we have had 2 pediatrician visits, 2 grandparent visits, 2 baths, a couch delivery, and lots of FaceTimes. In the meantime, we have kept the baby fed and diapered and happy.

We even ventured out for a walk around the block!

“Where am I?”

Our bassinet attaches to our stroller, so I wonder if the baby just thought her bed had become a jiggle ride all of a sudden. Many of our neighbors must have observed us walking — and waddling — past their porches in the end of my pregnancy because several passerby exclaimed, “Oh, the baby was born!!”

This sweetie pie is bringing joy to everyone, strangers included.

“Get in loser, we’re going shopping.”

by chuckofish

Well, here in Mid-MO things are getting back to normal. The TJ Maxx opened and, naturally, I ventured there on Saturday. Let me tell you, it is a real treat to peruse some aisles and buy things that aren’t needs. Although, I did need that lipstick. There were some changes–a woman stood outside with a counter tracking the number of customers in the store. And there was another woman disinfecting the carts. I observed a line to get in to the Old Navy [insert the crying laughing emoji]. At all the stores I visited, the employees and customers smiled at each other. It was nice.

In other news, one of my co-workers sent me this to read. It always concerns me when this particular co-worker thinks we are similar and share interests, but I did chuckle throughout.

Here’s a song I heard on the radio this week that should really be my theme song.

Sorry this post spans the full spectrum of sublime to ridiculous but I had a long day full of conference calls. I did manage to work in a Mean Girls reference, though.

Running the race set before me with joy

by chuckofish

Timothy Keller, founder of Redeemer Presbyterian Church in Manhattan and a bestselling author and church planter, announced on Sunday that he has pancreatic cancer and will soon begin chemotherapy treatment. This is sad news indeed, but he sees it as providential intervention that doctors caught the cancer when they did. In his twitter announcement he said:

These are all good things to remember when we are asked to pray for someone who is sick and I think it is great that he put them down as a guide for people to follow. The scripture quote at the bottom, which I cut off accidentally, is Hebrews 12:1-2. It is a perfect reminder to deal with whatever God puts in our path with joy.

When in doubt about prayer, there is always the Book of Common Prayer:

Heavenly Father, giver of life and health: Comfort and relieve your sick servant Tim, and give your power of healing to those who minister to his needs, that he may be strengthened in his weakness and have confidence in your loving care; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

I did call upon the Lord with my voice; And he heard me out of his holy hill.

Oo-de-lally, oo-de-lally, golly, what a day

by chuckofish

“It was a beautiful summer afternoon, at that delicious period of the year when summer has just burst forth from the growth of spring; when the summer is yet but three days old, and all the various shades of green which nature can put forth are still in their unsoiled purity of freshness.”
― Anthony Trollope, Framley Parsonage 

Our weekend was filled with texts of the baby’s progress–they went home on Friday–and pictures and FaceTime calls. 

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It has a broken wheel and we were planning to replace it, but they had fun cleaning it up. We had also gotten out the little pool and they used it mostly for washing the car.

I finished reading Excellent Women by Barbara Pym and I enjoyed it very much, although after awhile the unconscious, careless rudeness of people toward the heroine, a single church-going woman, although wittily written, began to wear on me. Now I am looking for something else to move on to.

Over the weekend, I watched several movies released in the year 1973: American Grafitti, which did not hold up terribly well,

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Screen Shot 2020-06-07 at 12.58.58 PMand Walking Tall, which I had never seen before and was an interesting movie.

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Indeed, it was an interesting year in movies. Except for the top movie, The Exorcist, the top 10 are surprisingly not a terrible list.

Anyway, I was in high school and I actually saw a lot of these movies, although I saw the rated R ones years later.

I also saw the Disney Robin Hood years later when my kids were small. We liked it a lot.

Now it is Monday and back to the salt mine of my home office. I am underwhelmed. Here’s a prayer we can all pray: