dual personalities

I don’t know about you, but I’ve had just about enough of this. I was about to write that I’ve had a rough week and then I remembered that it is Tuesday. I’ve almost reached this level:

I know I’m not alone in this. You know the feeling when everything puts you irrationally on the brink of an outburst. Oh, the Rice Krispies aren’t on an eye level shelf so I passed them? AND OMG if another motorcycle or car with a thumping base drives by GRRRR. Things like that are really putting me close to the edge. You throw in some work stuff and kablamo Howard Beale is in the house.

I did have to laugh though because while walking to my car this afternoon (I’ve been parking my rental car in the garage at work since I only use it once a week), I passed one of my least favorite reporters in the Missouri press corps.  But I guess my leggings, lack of makeup, and big sunglasses threw him off because he didn’t recognize me. Small joys, am I right?

So, how to come down from the brink of an outburst? Well this song helped me this afternoon.

I was remarking to a co-worker this morning that I feel like all of my conversations with her end with me saying “I just need to accept that I can’t control it.” Of course, we were talking about media narrative, but that sentiment is the crux of this, right? We all feel very out of control. We can’t control where we go. We can’t control what will be on the shelves at the grocery store and what won’t. We can’t even control whether we go to work.

So what are we to do when the chaos in our minds starts taking control? Well, turn our eyes to Jesus. Play some music that brings you joy. Loudly. Do a little dancing. Have a glass of wine. Breathe. And pray about it.

I’m feeling better already.