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Month: January, 2017

Last day in January

by chuckofish

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The splendor falls on castle walls
And snowy summits old in story:
The long light shakes across the lakes,
And the wild cataract leaps in glory.
Blow, bugle, blow, set the wild echoes flying,
Blow, bugle; answer, echoes, dying, dying, dying.

O hark, O hear! how thin and clear,
And thinner, clearer, farther going!
O sweet and far from cliff and scar
The horns of Elfland faintly blowing!
Blow, let us hear the purple glens replying:
Blow, bugle; answer, echoes, dying, dying, dying.

O love, they die in yon rich sky,
They faint on hill or field or river:
Our echoes roll from soul to soul,
And grow for ever and for ever.
Blow, bugle, blow, set the wild echoes flying,
And answer, echoes, answer, dying, dying, dying.

–from The Princess (Part 3) by Alfred Lord Tennyson

Read the whole thing here.

Weekend update

by chuckofish

Another busy weekend has come and gone.

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It was a nice weekend, which combined the right balance of housework, reading, talking to family members and socializing with friends. We visited the tiny babies who have actually doubled in size (but are still tiny)

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and the boy and daughter #3 came over for tacos on Sunday night.

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I started reading The Transit of Venus by Shirley Hazzard who died last December. Reading her obituary at the time, I realized I was completely unacquainted with her. Then, when I was perusing my bookshelves recently looking, as always, for something to read, I found The Transit of Venus. So I started reading.

At first I was put off by her somewhat pretentious style:

As he went up he was ashamed by a sense of adventure that delineated the reduced scale of his adventures. After the impetuous beginning, he would puzzle them by turning out staid and cautious. In a gilt mirror near the door he surprised himself, still young.

And her overuse of clever simile:

Where they got down, wrought-iron gates were folded back like written pages.

But as I persevered, I became more and more impressed. I saw that she is the real deal and pretty terrific. The Transit of Venus, which won the 1980 National Book Critics Circle Award for fiction, is “stuffed with description so intellectually active as to be sometimes exhausting,” Thomas Mallon wrote in The Atlantic (NYT obit). This is true, but her observations are brilliant. I will keep going.

I also read the Paris Review interview with Hazzard in 2005 and I was further impressed. She made the interviewer look like a moron.

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The jar of Marmite that Rex Ivory held on to through his imprisonment in a Japanese prisoner-of-war camp seems like a symbol of the primitive human need to hold onto something, to make some sort of meaning. Has art been like that for you?

HAZZARD

There was an actual jar of Marmite, recounted to me long, long ago by a British survivor of Changi Camp near Singapore and of the camp called Outram Road. Don’t forget that it has a real and immediate significance. Men died of malnutrition in those camps, and of diseases from lack of any coherent diet. Marmite would have been a treasure, and a lifesaver. Keeping it unopened was not only symbolic; it was a possible element for a day or two’s survival in the case of escape. In the Japanese camps, British and Australian prisoners hid tiny rice cakes saved from their starvation rations for just such motives. Immediate factual truth comes before symbolic cogitations. But yes, I suppose art is a Marmite, and the conserved shred of civilized life must seem intensely so to isolated and persecuted people. I remember a heart-shaking description by Solzhenitsyn in The Gulag Archipelago about prisoners exchanging whispered remembrances of poetry, or a phrase from a Mozart opera, precious passwords of sanity and civilized life, and of the ineffable power of art; Marmite.

Here’s the whole Paris Review interview.

Have a good Monday and a good week!

He has told you, O mortal, what is good;
and what does the Lord require of you

but to do justice, and to love kindness,
and to walk humbly with your God?

–Micah 6:8, from the OT lesson on Sunday.

Italian Idyll

by chuckofish

One of the necklaces I wear most frequently is a silver coin pendant. It belonged to my paternal grandmother, Mira Sargent Chamberlin.  The obverse shows a nymph

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and the reverse shows victory putting a laurel on a man-headed bull.

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The pictures are a little blurry, but it isn’t very big (about the size of a penny), so I had to get in close.  I’ve always wondered about the coin and recently endeavored to find out about it. Low and behold, the internet is full of information about such things (which is how I know about the nymph, victory, and man-headed bull). It turns out that it’s an Italian didrachm, from Neapolis (Naples) and dates to the 4th century BC. A better photographed example looks like this:

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The city minted various versions between about 425 and 275, and mine seems to fall somewhere around 350. To give you some chronological perspective, at that point Rome was just beginning to expand a little, Neapolis was a Greek city, and Alexander the Great was still a child.

I’m sure there’s a great story behind the pendant. I imagine that Mira got it when the family lived in Italy but I wonder how she came by it? Maybe my father found it on the beach and gave it to his mother who then had it set and wore it proudly. Newell seemed to be an avid beach-comber.

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The powerful play goes on

by chuckofish

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Oh me! Oh life! of the questions of these recurring,
Of the endless trains of the faithless, of cities fill’d with the foolish,
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light, of the objects mean, of the struggle ever renew’d,
Of the poor results of all, of the plodding and sordid crowds I see around me,
Of the empty and useless years of the rest, with the rest me intertwined,
The question, O me! so sad, recurring—What good amid these, O me, O life?
                                       Answer.
That you are here—that life exists and identity,
That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.

When in doubt, folks, go back to Walt Whitman for a punch of optimism.

D’ailleurs, it is Friday and I am ready for the weekend. I have stuff to do per usual and the “Elegant Italian Dinner” to attend at church. This fundraiser for the youth mission trip is always a fun event, even if the menu never varies from the lasagna and bag salad of yesteryear. That is part of its charm I guess.

Weather-wise it is going to be a typical cold, gray flyover January weekend,

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but we’ll go see our two little rays of sunshine in the NICU unit.

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They look so much bigger with their preemie clothes, don’t they?

I should also note that Sunday–January 29–is the birthday of our great-great uncle John Wesley Prowers (1838–1884), the Colorado cattleman.

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In honor of JWP, I think I will watch Lonesome Dove this weekend.  JWP was a friend and business partner of Charles Goodnight, upon whom the character Captain Call (Tommy Lee Jones) is based.  I meant to watch it a week or so ago in honor of Robert Duvall, but I could not find it, because, as it turned out, I had lent it to the boy! Life is complicated!

Other possibilities on the cattle drive theme would be Red River (1948) or The Cowboys (1972) or episodes from the old TV show Rawhide (1959–1965) starring a dreamy young Clint Eastwood.

So many choices. And, hello, here’s something I found while perusing the internet:

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The world is more than we know. Have a great weekend.

The painting is by Fairfield Porter, Broadway South of Union Square, oil on canvas 1974-1975

You’ve got spunk

by chuckofish

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Well, sadly, TV “icon” Mary Tyler Moore has died at the age of 80.

Mary was a person I could relate to. I was in the ninth grade when The Mary Tyler Moore Show debuted on television, and I can tell you, growing up in flyover-land where practically everyone in my school was a blue-eyed blonde, it was really nice to have a beautiful brown-eyed, brown-haired actress in the spotlight.

She was always meticulously groomed and chic (at least in my 9th grade opinion )–I remember looking forward to seeing what she would wear each week.

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But even though she always looked great, everything did not work out perfectly for Mary. No, she frequently was embarrassed and unsure of herself and sometimes people made fun of her–just like the rest of us.

Plus, Mary Richards was a person who was getting by on her own, as a working gal–an “associate producer” no less. She had ventured out of her comfort zone and often had to push herself to do something. But she got by with a little help from her friends–Rhoda, Lou, Murray et al–as we all do.

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Mary Tyler Moore as Mary Richards taught me (and a lot of other girls) to have confidence. That is no small thing.

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MTM did a lot of other things besides play Mary Richards, and she did them well, but it is for this role that I remember her most fondly. I watched four episodes of The Mary Tyler Moore Show last night and toasted Mary. More toasting and MTM on the agenda for tonight. (CBS has scheduled a tribute to Mary Tyler Moore tonight at 8 p.m. central time.)

Into paradise may the angels lead thee, Mary, and at thy coming may the martyrs receive thee, and bring thee into the holy city Jerusalem. (BCP, Burial of the Dead, Rite I)

The moon is mine

by chuckofish

George Sotter (1879-1953)

I have a compact to commune
A monthly midnight with the Moon;
Into its face I stare and stare,
And find sweet understanding there.

As quiet as a toad I sit
And tell my tale of days to it;
The tessellated yarn I’ve spun
In thirty spells of star and sun.

And the Moon listens pensively,
As placid as a lamb to me;
Until I think there’s just us two
In silver world of mist and dew.

In all of spangled space, but I
To stare moon-struck into the sky;
Of billion beings I alone
To praise the Moon as still as stone.

And seal a bond between us two,
Closer than mortal ever knew;
For as mute masses I intone
The Moon is mine and mine alone.

–Robert Service, from “Moon-Lover”

In case you have forgotten, a tessellation of a flat surface is the tiling of a plane using one or more geometric shapes, called tiles, with no overlaps and no gaps. In mathematics, tessellations can be generalized to higher dimensions and a variety of geometries. A periodic tiling has a repeating pattern.

(I’ll admit, I had to look it up.)

The painting above (“Silent Night” c. 1923) is by George Sotter (1979-1952). The paintings that follow are by Maxfield Parrish, Bertha Lum and Albert Bierstadt.

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All photos from Pinterest.

Some things never change dept.

by chuckofish

I become quite melancholy and deeply grieved to see men behave to each other as they do. Everywhere I find nothing but base flattery, injustice , self-interest, deceit and roguery. I cannot bear it any longer; I’m furious; and my intention is to break with all mankind.

―Moliere, The Misanthrope (1666)

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Well, c’est la vie.

Happy Tuesday.

Grant us strength and courage

by chuckofish

Quelle busy weekend! The weather was beautiful on Saturday (72 degrees!) so everyone, including me, was out and about.

Grandpappy and I visited the wee babes at the hospital.

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Lottie is now big enough to fit into preemie clothes!

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Little boy is over 3 lbs! It won’t be long before he can wear pants too.

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On the social side we went out to dinner with old friends. I attended my church’s annual meeting and stayed for the service following. Afterwards I had lunch with my pal Carla.

In between all these activities I managed to work in the yard and go to an estate sale,  but there was not much time for puttering around the house.

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Having finished The Thin Man, I  moved into deeper water and started to re-read the wonderful A Testament of Devotion by Thomas R. Kelly, a hero among Quakers and in the larger world of Christian mystics.

To this extraordinary life I call you–or He calls you through me–not as a lovely ideal, a charming pattern to aim at hopefully, but as a serious, concrete program of life, to be lived here and now, in industrial America, by you and by me.

This is something wholly different from mild, conventional religion which, with respectable skirts held back by dainty fingers, anxiously tries to fish the world out of the mudhole of its own selfishness. Our churches, our meeting houses are full of such respectable and amiable people. We have plenty of Quakers to follow God the first half of the way. Many of us have become as mildly and as conventionally religious as were the church folk of three centuries ago, against whose mildness and mediocrity and passionlessness George Fox and his followers flung themselves with all the passion of a glorious and a new discovery and with all the energy of dedicated lives. In some, says William James, religion exists as a dull habit, in others as an acute fever. Religion as a dull habit is not that for which Christ lived and died.

The weekend sped by and now it is Monday once again. I’m off to the salt mine. Enjoy your day, okay?

*BCP, Post-Communion Prayer

But tell me what happens when dreams don’t come true*

by chuckofish

Today is a big day for many women I know, who have traveled far and spent a lot of money for the chance to stand in a large crowd chanting angry slogans.

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I get it. They care deeply about women’s rights (as do I). However, it is not the merits of the movement that I want to discuss here. Rather, I want to comment on an underlying motivation I discovered that struck me as particularly important.  According to the many women I know who are participating, what excited them most about protesting was the prospect of belonging and having a purpose.  To me, that says more about the alienation of modern life than it does about the state of women’s rights.

Don’t get me wrong. I don’t doubt their feminist fervor, but practically speaking, it would make much more sense for them to take the money they are spending on travel and hotels, and donate it to some worthy women’s charity. Clearly, there is more going on here. Maybe it’s time to spend some quality time trying to figure out what is missing from our lives (and I don’t mean government supplied birth control).

All of us feel alienated from time to time (some of us feel that way all the time), but losing oneself in a group can provide only temporary relief. Usually, introspection produces more durable results. Here’s a sad song from Mary Chapin Carpenter to help you get started:

You can read the lyrics here.

Safe travels for all. I hope you find what you seek, but remember that the thrill of mob solidarity is illusory.

*Mary Chapin Carpenter, “Hand on My Back”

Whiskey for my men, beer for my horses*

by chuckofish

I’ve been watching a lot of television lately. In these winter months when I frequently come home after it’s already dark out, I all too often curl up on the couch in the den and stay there. So whether I’m watching a movie or binge-watching Fuller House, season two, on Netflix, which by the way is sensational,

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I try to do something else at the same time so I won’t feel too bad about myself.

Here are some ideas for those of you who think you also spend too much time as winter couch potatoes:

Count all the change that has been piling up in bowls all over the house.

IMG_2372.JPGFinish one of those needlepoint projects you’ve started. If needlepoint is not your thing, any craft will do.

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Indulge in beauty treatments. I mean, we all need remarkably radiant skin, right?

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Any more ideas?

When I’ve had enough of watching the old boob tube, I go back to a book. Right now I’m re-reading The Thin Man by Dashiell Hammett, which is excellent.

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Unfortunately, reading in the evening usually sends me straight to dreamland and then, before I know it, the alarm is going off and it is time to get up and go to work!

Well, thank goodness it is Friday again. Have a great weekend!

*Toby Keith (I’d forgotten how great he is)